When Vacation and Baseball Collide

We have a situation on our hands. My son is playing select baseball and, if we win a few tournament games, has the chance to go the National Finals this summer. It's supposed to be a really neat deal with thousands of kids, fun events and great baseball. The same week the Nationals are held is the week we take our annual family vacation to a spot in the mountains. My daughter, who doesn't play baseball nor does she really care to watch anyone play baseball, isn't happy about the prospect of getting to watch a bunch of 10 year old boys and goofy parents for a week. It's quite the dilemma.

Have you been in one of these situations before? What did you do?

"In" or "Of" The World

Our youth minister gave a great lesson last night about being in the world but not of the world. It's a great conversation topic but I left asking myself how well I live it. Do people know I'm a Christian? Do people see that God is most important in my life? Do I seem very different from anyone else?

I keep coming back to the question of whether people really see a difference in my life because I am a child of God's but that might not be the question I need to ask. Maybe "Am I living my life so that when I sing 'I will give you all my worship, I will give you all my praise' or 'boundless love, unending joy' or 'Amazing Grace' I really live what I sing?" And if I am going to sing it, I better live it.

The class discussed hypocrites last night. I've found it so easy for people to tag Christians with the hypocrite label because a Christian does something wrong. I suggest calling them a sinner would be wholly more accurate because all the Christians I know mess up now and again. Yet, I'm not sure hypocrite is the wrong label for me when I profess to put God first, when I profess to be completely His, when I profess to honor and worship him and then don't set my mind, even my heart, to live this way.

I can beat myself up all day but I need to quit blogging and to starting living to what I have been called. I want only to live in the world but to be of God in my life. I hope I get better at it today and tomorrow and every day following. I hope someone will truly see God in me, in my actions and in my words, and they will fall in love with the Creator and the King and accept His matchless grace and love.

Grounded

Yesterday was fun...NOT. I was supposed to be flying to Las Vegas for a seminar. I got there early to check-in and found out I had been upgraded to a first class seat. Things were looking good. Then, the lady told me that my flight had changed from Terminal A to Terminal D. Oh well I thought, D is the newer, nicer terminal anyway. About an hour before our 3:00 flight was supposed to take off, it was cancelled. The lady at the desk booked me on a 8:50 flight but told me there was a 2:20 that I could try standby for in Terminal C so off I went. The flight was already booked and the weather blew in. Those people were stuck on the plane on the tarmac in some nasty stuff. Once it cleared up they pulled up and unloaded them. They also cancelled the 4:20 flight and we all headed to Terminal A to try and standby for the 5:45 flight. About 10 minutes after that plane was supposed to start boarding, they told us it was flying out of Terminal D. It was then pushed back to 6:30 to fly out of Terminal A (you're starting to see the pattern I bet). It as cancelled. The 8:50 flight was flying out of Terminal D so off we went. OK, frustrating but still not bad. There's a Railhead BBQ restaurant in D and I was looking forward to it only to find it closed. Dinner at Bennigan's and then watching the Heat-Bulls game in the terminal wasn't so bad. At 8:45, they finally announced that our 8:50 flight was leaving from Terminal A at 9:20. Around 10:00, the evacuated the flight tower and I decided I wasn't making it to Vegas and cancelled my ticket. At 10:20, they finally started boarding the plane and when I left the airport around 10:50 (without my luggage), the plane was still sitting on the ground. I was beat and thin on patience.

It's a beautiful day today and hopefully my luggage will resurface so I can go back to the airport to pick it up. I've often seen these stories on the news and wondered how people cope in those situations. Some handle it pretty well, others do not. I thought two women were going to get in a fight at one point, others were very rude to the airline attendants who didn't have anything to do with the weather or the decisions. The only thing that would have helped is if they would have kept everyone a little bit better informed but I suppose they did what they could.

It will be nice to be here a few days before leaving again next week for Salado.

Have you ever been caught up in a situation like that? What happened? Did you flip?

It's Been a Patsy Cline Kind of Week

I think Cline sang the song "Crazy" originally but I'm not good with history so I could be wrong. It was a busy week leading to busier weeks for me so I'm not sure how much I'll be blogging. For most of you, it is probably a welcome relief but then again, if you are checking here very often it is self-induced torture so I can't help you much.

I've got a crazy travel schedule coming up over the next two weeks - all work related - and if you know me, you know travel isn't my bag.

The problems with our baseball team parents seems to be working out. I hope it will get better but am of the mind that it will fall apart at some point. I suppose it depends on our record as much as anything. If we win some games, all will be better. I remember the cliche that says something to the affect that you can tell more about a person when they are down rather than when they are up. Sadly, it seems to be true in this experience.

What are you most thankful for? When asked this question, I most often think of some possession but today my answer would be "grace." I heard a beautiful sermon this morning about grace and I realized it is my most prized gift. What a blessing to be a child of God, a God who extends grace to me. Realizing what I have through God, I certainly look at my small troubles such as travel, baseball parents and anything else and see that they are truly meaningless when compared with what God has lovingly given me.

I hope you have a great week and you too revel in the gift of grace that you and I have been given.

Anger

Anger is an emotion I wrestle with too often. Generally I do a good job of keeping it in check but too often for me, I don't and I am wrestling with it today. I'm wrestling with it because in the course of trying to help boys enjoy playing baseball, I have to deal with parents who's ego and single-mindedness has them dampening the spirit of the team. If you've coached or are close to someone who has coached, you probably know the drill. We're not playing their little angel enough, pitching him enough, using him the right way. Their little angel hit better, ran better and caught better before he was on our team. Now there are some parents holding the rest of the team hostage until they decide if they want to play with us any longer. Part of me wants to throw in the towel but I have a little angel too and he wants to play baseball. He will overlook the problems if he can put on the uniform and get in the field. His passion and desire to play the game are the only things that keep me from walking away. So, we have to have a big meeting tomorrow and talk through it all and I'm worried my anger will come through. It's the devil's hook into me, one of the places he can really operate on me and pull me away from what I need to be.

Tomorrow night I have two battles. One is with a bunch of silly parents, the other with Satan. I hope I overcome both obstacles tomorrow but in the end, I've got to put my focus on the bigger one, the battle to control my anger and hope the other one will take care of itself.

Senseless Actions

It was saddening and sickening to hear about the murders in Virginia yesterday. What makes people do such heinous things? I have no ability to make sense of it or say anything that can make anyone feel any better at this time other than to pray that God will be sought out in this tragedy.

Saying that, what does get under my skin is listening to the talking heads on TV second guess the decisions the school administration and police officers made. I have a feeling that if a gunman walked into CNN or ABC today and started spraying bullets around, many of these arm-chair quarterbacks would be ducking for cover and not have a clue how to handle themselves. I trust that if mistakes were made, all of that will be considered by those involved in the near future and used to help so I can't understand why these know-it-alls feel the need to pontificate on something they know little about.
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I'm enjoying the rain today. I hope we can avoid the bad stuff and just enjoy the wet stuff.

Blog Addict to Bible Addict? I Hope So.

How many of your check this or some other blog daily (or more than once if it isn't up at the normal time)? I've found myself falling into that routine, checking some blogs that I read daily or less frequently. A friend recently posted that he may quit daily blogging and some of us did some combination of encouraging him to keep posting, telling him why we enjoyed it or threatening physical harm to his golf equipment.

This whole blog thing came across my mind last night at church while we were celebrating the successes of our kids at LTC (Leadership Training for Christ). One young lady participated in Daily Devotional where she was challenged to read her Bible for 15 minutes every day, pray and keep a journal of what she studied and prayed about. One. Just one participated in an event and I must say I was ashamed of myself. I can read blogs everyday, I can scan web pages for sports updates, I can watch the news or read a good thriller, I can find time to eat and do all sorts of things that appeal to me but I'm not making time to read the Bible a measly 15 minutes a day.

Today I am going to work on changing that. I'm also going to make a point to thank that young lady for helping me remember what my priorities should be.

Watch What You Say

I'm sick of the Don Imus discussion. Maybe because of my age, my race, my beliefs I have no reason to weigh in or offer an opinion but it seems everybody else with a microphone is.

Imus said a bad thing that was offensive to certain people. He should be embarrased and apologize and so far he has admitted to his humiliation and has apologized. I think it is important for his employers to decide what punishment is right and whether it be a suspension or termination, it is their decision to make.

What irritates me the most about the whole thing is hearing the mouthpieces say it's OK for one group to use certain terminology but others are not allowed to because it then becomes offensive. If it is offensive, it is offensive. That's it. If I call my kids "nit-wits" should I be surprised if someone else calls them "nit-wits" or should I expect it? If people of color (I don't know the PC term of the day) can use the "n-word" then why would anyone be surprised if everyone uses the same word?

In the infamous words of Rodney King, can't we just all get along? What if (this is a crazy idea), what if we all treated people with respect? What if we never used derogatory words of any type to describe someone? I don't know...just a thought.

Amazing

The question in the youth group class last night was "what's the most amazing thing you've seen?" Being the only parent in the room, I was thinking my answer was the birth of my children. It's an amazing time filled with so many emotions. As my children have grown, it has been a continued state of amazement, worry, joy, fear - so many things that every parent goes through with children.

I couldn't help but think about how God feels when we decide to accept the grace He has given us and whether he goes through the roller-coaster of emotions that we do. I cannot comprehend God and I cannot begin to imagine all that He thinks and feels but I can't help but think that He shares some of our same feelings as we look at our children.

One of the scriptures shared last night was Jesus saying he was amazed by the people's lack of faith. I hope I am less often causing God to be amazed by my lack of faith and more often creating joy in Him by my faith and through my faith serving Him.

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I played catch-up with "24" last night having missed the last two episodes. I wonder if anything like this really happens in the course of a day, a week or a month. This poor guy hasn't had any sleep, he's battling terrorists with nuclear weapons and one bad thing follows every good thing. It's a miserable 24 hours, that's for sure. Realizing the show is fiction, I still wonder what goes on sometimes. We know there have been and likely are people living in our country who want or plan to do something very damaging to us. Who is watching them? What are the stakes?
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On a happier note, what was thought to be lice in our county courthouse now only be mites. It's great when your town makes the news because the courthouse is shut down due to lice (or "crabs" as known by some). I don't know much about mites but it sounds better than crabs.
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It's Wednesday. I feel like I've been blessed over the past few months getting to spend some time with the youth group at church on Wednesday nights. There are some really, really neat kids that are part of our church group and they bring a number of friends with them each week. I've enjoyed getting to know them and miss not being there when I'm traveling.

It's also Casa Torres night with our friends. Good food, good friends...a good night.

Found

In case you didn't happen to see the update in yesterday's post, one dog (the yellow lab) has been found. She was close by at someone's house who took care of her and fed her prime rib. It was good to see her when I pulled up and she is now home and locks have been put on the gate latches.

Someone called saying they thought they saw the other dog but when I went looking there was no dog around. We'll see.

As I went to pick up Bea, I couldn't help put think about the shepherd who searches for a lost sheep. He knows it could be lost to wolves but he still looks, hoping. I'm thankful for a shepherd who searches for me when I am lost and who desires to find me and bring me back safe to where I should be.

Starting Over

Another Monday, another list of things that need to be done, another mountain growing in front of me. It seems like it happens more often than not and I have pretty well survived those times in the past and I trust this week will be the same.

We were gone for the weekend and came home to our dogs being gone. A couple of our neighbors and relatives looked for them Saturday to no avail. We went out looking and calling for them last night when we got home but no luck. We've had some trouble with animals over the past few years. It's odd looking out the back door and not seeing them running around or waiting for something to eat. ***UPDATE*** We have found one of the dogs. A man just a few miles away caught our lab (Bea) and kept her over the weekend. He said she really loves prime rib.

The weekend was great. LTC was incredible again with bunches of kids doing what they have been practicing for weeks and months. It was fun to see them perform their activity and it was fun seeing them get to fellowship and spend time with each other. I always enjoy watching the activity even though I hate being in crowds in confined spaces.

Have a great week conquering your mountains.

Excitement Around The Corner

Tomorrow is the home opener for the Rangers. Even though they are coming off a horrific outing in Anaheim, they return to the Ballpark with history being just that and hope for a turnaround that gets them kickstarted to a great year. I love opening days. It's a day game, the best way to watch a game when the temperature is below 90. Fireworks, fresh-cut grass, bands, a flyover...and hope for a winning season. I can't wait.

The really big event for us and for many in our church family is LTC. Watching these kids finally do what they have been working on and practicing for over months is a blessing. I don't know how many kids we have participating from our church (along with a number of kids who don't regularly attend our church but come to participate in LTC) but there are a bunch of them along with thousands from other churches who will be there. They all come to celebrate Christ, to learn and grow in their knowledge of him and their ability to share that knowledge - not just knowledge but the hope and joy we have through Christ. I know this year, just like others, I will have chills because of some performances, tears of joy because of others and moments of reflection from others. I can't wait.

The really, really big event is the commemoration of the resurrection. I want to soak it in this year, to feel closer to a Savior who died for me, to be humbled and thankful for a love I cannot measure and that I really can't comprehend. What a beautiful event. Even more, what a beautiful love my God has for me.

Recovery

It seem the ink disaster has been somewhat averted. Thanks for the ink removal tips. It sounds like I'm not the only one who forgets to check their pockets now and again.
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I was reminded yesterday that there are people around us suffering emotionally and spiritually that we often are not aware of. They are going through pain, fear, worry, maybe even regret. When I was told about a situation yesterday, all I could think to do was pray that God would intervene, that He would be able to reach in and help even if those involved weren't turned to Him at that moment. The people directly involved and many who may be hurt indirectly will all need to recover from what has happened and I just don't know how a true recovery can work without God.

I've been there and would guess you may have too. I've said things or done things that have hurt people deeply and recovery could not happen without God. The only joy I have is knowing that God will forgive me, that He will cover me with mercy, with the blood of the Lamb and my relationship with Him can be made new. I hope when someone hurts me that I will extend the forgiveness that I have received from my Creator, my Lord and my Savior. I hope we can all fill that power when we hurt or have been hurt. I hope we will all know the joy of forgiveness and forgiving.

I've never really thought about forgiveness from me requires a sacrifice on my part. It's a simple sacrifice really, just giving up my pride, my idea of justification, my self-pity. Those things are such an insignificant price to pay when I realize my God gave up His son for my forgiveness. When I frame it in that context, that I don't have to give up my son, just my own thoughts and ideas, it becomes very easy for me to forgive.

I may have wandered off a bit from where I started but as I think about it, our recovery from anything is sped up or slowed down by forgiveness. The ability to forgive ourselves, the forgiveness we give or get and our grasp of the forgiveness we have received from God all play a role in recovering from anything.

Some Days

My morning started with an early recognition that a pen and papers I had left in a shirt pocket had been washed. Ink had stained many of the clothes and possibly ruined some from wearing them at normal times. The papers I had ended up as little, wrinkled rolled-up balls that were useless.

I didn't get much sleep last night but still felt pretty good when I woke up this morning and then, when finding out about the pen explosion, it was like everything went downhill in the blink of an eye. I didn't feel good. I was disappointed, upset, mad. The day was already ruined. I messed up my clothes, my wife's clothes, my kid's clothes.

It is far too easy for something so insignificant, so little, a nuisance, to rule my day, to distract me, to change my focus and my thoughts. Yet, it only happens because I allow it to happen. I allow the insignificant to become significant, to grab my attention and thoughts.

Where will I focus today? Will I focus on the life-changing power of God or will I focus on material things ruined in the wash? Will I focus on being led to be a servant or being led to self-pity?

I apologize for the mental lapse and for the new Texas shorts that have an ink stain on them and whatever else was in the wash. It happened and will not change so the rest of the day, I will work to stay focused on what I have received, the love and mercy of my Savior, and I will try to glorify my Lord in all I do. That's what I'm deciding will be my focus today.

April Fools

I made it through the first day of April without being fooled. I still remember the biggest bite I ever took on April Fools. It was when I was still dating my wife. I had gone over to her apartment for a late dinner (I was still in public accounting and working late during tax season). We watched the news and I left right after the beginning of sports to the news that the Mavericks had traded for David Robinson. The sportscaster said to watch the end of the segment for all the details but I left to head home happy the Admiral was coming to town. When I got home the phone was ringing (pre-cell phone days) and it was my wife-to-be telling me it was an April Fools joke. I was trapped wondering if the trade was the joke or if she was pulling the joke by making me think there wasn't a trade. I turned on ESPN as fast as I could and after watching for some time realized there was no trade in the works for Robinson. What could have been...
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Tonight is the big night for college hoops junkies like me. I'm pulling for Florida just because those five guys chose to come back and try to do something hard to do. I hope they pull it off.
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Our Bible class is studying the names of Jesus. Yesterday we talked about "shepherd" as a name for Jesus and the discussion turned to the 23rd Psalm. "The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want..." Oh, how I wish I would live my life that way. I wish I would remember every second that He will guide me, I don't need to find my own paths. I wish I would remember every minute that I have all that I need instead of wanting more.

I can only imagine the peace I would enjoy if I learn to live knowing the Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want.

Home, Wet Home

It's good to be home again and good to see all the water falling from the sky. I feel for the people south of us who are battling flooded homes but appreciate the rain we are receiving.

I had a good, fast trip the last couple of days. My experience at A&M was great and I really enjoyed visiting with some bright kids. I hope I have the opportunity again in the future.

One of the best parts of the trip was stopping at the Czech Stop both going and coming back for some of their great kolaches.

On my trip from College Station to Salado, I took some back roads and saw some beautiful country. Green pastures, tanks full of water. It was an awesome and enjoyable sight.

Now, it's back to the grindstone working for the man. Ha. It's good to be home but I am thankful for the experience I had.

I Miss...

...the touch of my wife at bedtime.
...the joy of seeing my young daughter getting out of my truck in the morning looking more like a young lady.
...the joyous voice of my son.
...my bed.
...the routine of my life.
...watching a little TV with the kids.
...dinner at home - in whatever shifts we might be eating that night.
...the peace I feel when sleeping next to my wife.

I'm away from home and I don't enjoy it. I'm excited about my day tomorrow but would rather find a way to do it sleeping in my own bed and seeing my family in the morning.

The good news is that our well was fixed and there is water at the house. It made leaving a little easier.

I trust my wife and kids know I miss them, am thinking about them and saying a pray for them tonight.

Rain...With No Water

The rain was nice yesterday and I enjoyed seeing a lot of it yesterday. There was water standing in low spots on my way home, a welcome sight. How ironic though that we have no water at our house. I'm guessing at this point the pump has gone out. Our electrician (this might be where I should put an advertisement) came out and replaced everything he could and at 10:00pm there was still no water. It's a long night when you don't have water. I don't know that it's so bad not having it as it is knowing you don't have it.

This morning was a bit off-kilter but a big THANK YOU is due my wife's sister and family for letting us seek shower refuge at their house.

I hate leaving town when things aren't right. Hopefully we can get this resolved today and back to a normal routine.
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Speaking of off-kilter, coming back home from my shower I pulled down our street to see a truck sitting across one of my neighbor's driveway and partially in the culvert. It had demolished his mailbox and the brick ledge on both sides of his driveway. What a wake-up call.
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Having no water makes me start thinking about global warming and the other warnings I hear about dwindling water supplies. It makes me stop and think what kind of world we are leaving our children. It makes me stop and think what we need to do to be better stewards of what God has given us. I don't have a position on global warming and think it has been overly-politized but I do wonder...
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Since I'll be "guest-lecturing" tomorrow and the professor is picking me up at 6:15 in the morning (I usually don't drag myself out of bed until 6:30 at the earliest), there probably won't be a blog tomorrow. Until I write again, have a great day(s) and I hope your water is always running.

The Final Four Is Set

Four are left. Florida, UCLA, Ohio State and Georgetown. The games over the past weekend have been really good with some close games coming down to the final minutes/seconds. I'm pulling for Florida and imagining a Florida-Ohio State matchup although I'm not sure OSU can get by Georgetown. It's good stuff. I'm just concerned that the championship game may interfere with 24. Egad.
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I heard a great sermon on prayer yesterday. Prayer is something that perplexes me at times because too often I'm afraid I am asking way too much for myself. Other times, I feel like I am not asking for enough. I am thankful because I believe God does listen to my heart more than my words which are inadequate and knows what I need and will give me what I need when I don't know how to say it.
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Some of you know I am heading to Texas A&M on Wednesday to speak to some of their Ag-Business classes (guest-lecturer is the official term they use). I'm excited for the opportunity and nervous also. I've put together a PowerPoint presentation (with lots of help) to use so I look a little more advanced. I think the most challenging part of the day will be to be ready at 6:15 A.M. when they want to pick me up at the hotel for breakfast. If you know me, you know me rolling out of bed by 6:30 is a feat of epic proportions so being ready at 6:15 strikes fear in me.

My son suggested a talk consisting of "boo Aggies, boo Aggies, boo Aggies, Hook'em Horns!" but I'm not sure that will go over well. He also thought I should wear one of my Longhorn t-shirts - most likely the national championship shirt. It's great to have his support.
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While I'm off to Aggieland, my daughter will be heading to San Antonio this week to compete at State in a UIL Science competition. She had to spend a couple of Saturdays testing to qualify and now is going for the gold (I'm not sure what they get actually). They leave Thursday morning and will spend the day traveling and then touring the Alamo and Riverwalk. On Friday, they get to go to Sea World and then the competition and drive home on Saturday.

I'm so proud of her and know she will do great representing her school and herself.

Wahoo

Growing up, we played a game called Wahoo. It had something to do with moving marbles around on a board and I remember a picture of an indian on the game board. I'm sure it would be politically incorrect today but it was a fun game.
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It's Friday. Another Wahoo. It's been one of those weeks I'm glad is almost over.
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Wednesday night, one of the young men in the youth group spoke to the class about leadership. It was obvious he was a little nervous - up and talking in front of his peers about an important topic. He spoke about servant leadership, about Jesus coming to earth to serve and about our need to serve. I'm not sure I would have ever put that together when I was in high school and was impressed by him and his willingness to serve as a leader among his peers.

There are a number of kids in that group that exhibit the same leadership qualities in many ways. They all encourage me and remind me of what I need to do to serve them.

Absolutely Nothing

That's what I'm feeling the ability to write about today. A short night of sleep, a stressful day at work and humidity are all conspiring against me to be creative. Such is life at times.

I hope the rain will reach us but it isn't looking promising according to the weatherman I heard last night. I've seen a few sprinkles here and there but nothing worthwhile.

On Letterman last night, a recent graduate of Duke University was demonstrating his invention, the Beer Launcher. The premise is that you can stay on the couch, press a button on a remote and the a mechanical arm will retrieve a beer from the refrigerator and then launch it to you while you never move. It worked well but it makes you wonder about the kid and his college education. I guess the fact that he graduated from Duke with an engineering degree offers some promise that he will create something more beneficial for society eventually.

Have a great day.

Pick a Ticket

I'm meeting with some guys I share Rangers season tickets with today so we can start picking our games. It's an elaborate but fair process and I'm looking forward to watching baseball again. It's a sport I never had much interest in growing up but as you may know, my son loves it and because of that, so do I. While my passion for the sport has grown because of him, it has also grown because I have learned to enjoy different aspects of the game. One of the most interesting things to me is how it is both a team sport but also a very individual sport. To some degree, most sports are the same but I think baseball exemplifies the individual/team aspect more than others. The team relies on the individual to make plays but the individual has to make the play on his own. There's no one blocking for him when he hits, there is no one setting a screen when the ball is coming his way. It's up to the individual to perform to bolster what the team is wanting to accomplish. I'm getting excited for what I once thought of as a very boring game.
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I heard they found a 12 year old boy who had been missing in the woods or on a mountain somewhere in the last day or so. I obviously didn't catch the whole story but when I first heard about it, I thought about my own 12 year old and how she would survive in those circumstances. I know the parents must have been scared to death and I'm thankful the story ended on a good note. That young boy must be courageous and very relieved to be back home.
I like good endings.

Let the Arrows Fly

I saw a clip on the news this morning about a video shown on YouTube bashing Hillary and supporting Obama. Obama claims to have nothing to do with the ad and I have no reason to doubt that. What really stands out to me is that the vicious attacks are beginning and may now even be coming from outside the campaigns, attacks created by individuals who have the technological tools to manipulate what we see on the internet - for free.

It strikes me that the political battle often becomes a battle to tear opposing candidates down rather than build their own candidates up. I hear so much about the bad things the other candidate has done or will do but I don't hear as much about what their candidate has done or will do.

Sometimes the Christian battle is too similar. I hear about what everyone else is doing wrong but not enough about what God has done right. I hear people tearing down others but failing to build up our Savior.

I hope my heart is in the right place. I hope people hear me building up the love and saving grace of Jesus, the only thing that will save them, instead of tearing down others. I realize Satan is the battle we face and that Satan throws so many obstacles in our way. I realize there is a spiritual battle going on around me all the time. What I believe I have to stop and ask myself at times is "where is my heart?" Am I putting my focus and energy in fighting Satan or am I putting my focus and energy in wrapping myself in the armor of God?

I don't know that I'm clear in what I am trying to say today but hope you will hear the message God wants you to hear. As for me, the battle is on and today I will lean on God to help me overcome whatever I might face and to show those who are lost that there is hope, there is a glorious future that awaits them if they will only take hold of His hand and follow His will.

Back In The Saddle

It's back to work today. Whew, where did last week go. I have a list of things I wanted to do that I never got to but had plenty of good time spent with the family doing different things and that's what I wanted to do most.
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Our preacher gave a great impromptu message last night about righteousness. He discussed Hebrews 10 and the message that we are justified with God through our baptism, that we are made right with Him at that time. He went on to explain how our sanctification, becoming righteous, is a continous process, something accomplished over time. I could feel what he was saying last night because I know I am growing closer to God all the time. Looking back, I'm thankful the my baptism wasn't the closest I would ever be to God because I understand now so much more about God and His love for me than I did then. I have a long trip to make to be where I need to be with God but I know I will keep making it because the more I learn about Him, the more I want to keep moving closer to Him.

A Vacation Ending Too Soon

Tomorrow is the last official day of my vacation and it has come much too soon. I have not accomplished many of the things I had planned to do but also have had the opportunity to do some things with my family that I didn't plan for either.

I did spend a portion of the day mowing for the first time this season and I got my first sunburn of the year as did my son. We both suffer from fair skin and bad judgment meaning we both get burned easily and both don't think to put on sunscreen until after we've been burned once or twice. I've got more mowing to do tomorrow and you can bet I'll be sporting a good lather of sunscreen before I turn into a lobster.
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The first night of March Madness is nearly over and it's been a fun day and night. There's been a few upsets that were fun to watch and some games closer than they should have been. I was listening to the radio tonight and heard a player from Virginia Commonwealth shortly after they beat Duke. He was so excited, so happy and full of joy as he talked about their victory. He never ran down Duke or said anything negative or arrogant only expressing his excitement to play one more day. It's what I love about this tournament.
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I got a call tonight that one of my very closest friends growing up and his family had been in a bad wreck. Fortunately, it appears they will all be OK but it was scary for a bit. They were out of town but someone knew another church member was in the area. He was called and went to check on them. Another church member was driving down to where they are to see about them. The church secretary called someone at a church nearby and several members who don't even know this family have come by or called to check on them.

I thank God for our Christian family, for the love shown between brothers and sisters in Christ. I thank God for a Savior who has been our example and our sacrifice.

My Favorite Vacation Hot Spot

We ended up at Hulen Mall today. Yippee. It really wasn't so bad except that there weren't a large normal of "interesting" people to look at. Tonight we are watching American Idol which I haven't ever done. I'm realizing why I likely won't be watching it again.
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I saw Wild Hogs with my wife the other night. I spent most of the movie laughing. I think it's because many of my college buddies are gathering for Subberville this year. If you have an idea what Subberville would be, don't ask. If you don't know what Subberville is, DON'T ASK.
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If you read my blog, there's a good chance you read Rick Ross' blog (www.rross.blogspot.com). If you don't, Rick's wife Beverly left today for a mission trip to Kenya. She is going with several other women to work with women in the mission field in Kenya, to pray, study, praise and counsel with them. Pray for Beverly and the women on this trip for their success in lifting up God and each other and for their safe passage and return. They will be gone for two weeks - not a long trip by missions standards but an eon for spouses who await their return.
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I'm off to vacate a bit more.

Wayoutwise on vacation

I'm taking a few days off to hang out with the family. Today I took the kids to a movie (Bridge to Terabithia) and tomorrow we will venture off to the big city (Fort Worth) for some shopping (woohoo) and other stuff. It's good to have some time off and be with the people I love.
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I have a friend named Dennis who says I never write about something he knows about. While that opens the door to all sorts of comments, I do wonder what it is he would like to address. So, for Dennis and anyone else out there, let me know if there is something you would like to see addressed on Way Out Wise. I don't make any promises but you never know...
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The Big Dance cranks up this weekend. I'm thinking Florida will repeat but you just never know when it comes down to the tournament games. Kansas has a shot, Ohio State has a shot, Texas and Texas A&M are both dark horses and North Carolina could make it all the way. There are probably 3 others who might show up knocking on the door too.

I do play in a pool. Much of the money paid to play goes to a charity and some is paid out to the top-3 places. I've played in this pool since 1988 and it's my big gambling event of the year - $10 used to test my college basketball prowess. In the early years, I won something back pretty regularly. Lately, it's just a donation but I love it. College basketball is my favorite sport to watch and this part of the year is the sports pinnacle for me.
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We start baseball tournament play this weekend. Our mighty band of 10 year olds begins a quest to qualify for the Summer Nationals held in Oklahoma in July. We play in Desoto this weekend and don't really have a good feel for the ability of our team. It would be great to qualify right off the bat but I just hope we play well and the kids have fun playing baseball.

Go Destroyers!

Training

Last night was batting practice (w/o my young prodigy who is sporting a fever) with our baseball team. It's amazing how many times you can tell a kid what hand position to use, how to use their feet and legs and then watch them do it their own way over and over.

It only becomes more frustrating as I relate their actions to my spiritual life. How many times can I hear God's word telling me what I should do yet I keep going back to my own bad habits over and over?

I hope our little kids will become more receptive to our coaching points so they can improve their performance.

I have a much greater hope that I will become more receptive to God's directives for me so that I will be a better example of Christ-likeness.

Mo' Money

The big lottery drawing last night rendered two winners splitting a $355-370 million dollar jackpot. Wow. That is a lot of money to have handed to you, even if you have to share 1/2 of it. I hope those who won can use it for good. There was a report a year or so back about past lottery winners and the pain the money and change in lifestyle had brought on many of the people and their families. I hope this money can be used to help those families and help other people.

Good Morning America was listing what you could buy with that money and one of the things they mentioned was something in the neighborhood of 59 million Big Macs. Doesn't that just sound yummy?
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I don't seem to have much time to watch or read the news anymore but I heard something this morning about more problems with the stock market and the price of gas going up. Great.
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The Mavs won their 16th game in a row last night. Michael Young signed a long term deal with the Rangers. I'm not sure what's going on with the Cowboys and I don't understand hockey.

I'm looking forward to the start of baseball season and hope the Mavs make a long run to the championship game. Maybe it will help us forget about gas and the stock market.

Deal or No Deal

Our family has become hooked on this show. I don't know the whole story of the lady who was on Monday night but from the few comments I heard, it was evident she was living on a low income while working 3 jobs (yes, 3 jobs). The $1,000,000 prize was lost fairly quickly and then she went on a streak of good guessing. When the offer for her to quit picking was $189,000 I was hoping she would take it. She didn't and kept risking losing everything. In the end, she ended up with $402,000. That's a lot of money for anyone but for someone working 3 jobs, it had to be wonderful. I was excited for her and hope she will do good things in the future.
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I was reading some material written by a preacher from a church in Arizona. It is a newsletter that kicks around all the changes in churches of Christ and beats up on anyone who doesn't agree with his point of view. I think he has a right to do that and there is probably some merit in some of what he writes. Here's what bothers me about those types of newsletters. All they do is talk about what we need to do in church. I'm no Bible scholar and need to reread the Gospels but I just don't recall Jesus spending much time talking about what we need to do in church. In fact, I don't recall any of the New Testament books spending as much time talking about what we do in church as these newsletters do. However, I do read quite a bit in the Bible about what we are supposed to do outside the building - to show love, to serve, to be peacemakers, to show mercy and compassion, to teach and lead the lost to Christ.

I've grown up in a time where it seems much has been made about what happens in our corporate worship to the point I have lost touch with my duty to seek and save the lost. May God help me when I lose sight of the cross, when I forget the greatest command, when I turn inward and focus on myself. I pray I seek my mission of being outward focused on those who need Christ and that the church becomes a place of safety instead of a battleground, that our Christian family will be unified in the glory of a Savior who died for us while we were still in our sin and that we only share in the peace and love that is ours to claim because of amazing grace.

Good Morning Monday

In interviews, I often ask candidates what their favorite day of the week is. Most answer Friday or Saturday because it's the end of the week/the week is over/rest (not great answers in the retail environment since this is when most of the sales occur). A few will say Wednesday or Thursday and 1 or 2 have said Sunday because of religious reasons. Friday, I talked to a new employee who said Monday. I was surprised. She said it was because it was an opportunity to start her work week fresh and do better than she did last week.

It was a surprising and refreshing answer.
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I have a friend who was sick yesterday. His wife said he was sick in the head (OK, maybe I'm paraphrasing the way I imagined hearing it). At any rate, I hope he got his Sonic coney with chili, onions and jalepenos and feels better today.
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Some of you know I head up the Missions committee at our church. A few years ago, I viewed missions work as one of those things we were supposed to do. Now, I enjoy it immensely and get excited about hearing what people want to do to carry the Gospel around the globe. We are the sponsoring church for a young man in Aracaju, Brazil doing incredible work. Last year, we began supporting a fascinating couple in Paris, France. I don't know I've met anyone with more energy than those two and they use it all for God's purpose. We are now considering support for people working in India, Africa and here in the states. I look forward to giving more information on all of these as it comes together. At any rate, I felt great after our meeting yesterday with what we are able to do and only wish we could do more. There are so many great opportunities and I pray that those who desire to be missionaries will get the support and help they need.
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Brazil is the furthest I've ever traveled. What's your most remote locale to visit (for any reason, business, pleasure, church, etc.)?

Two Funerals

The mother of a good friend of ours passed away Tuesday as well as an Elder and a good friend in our church. I know both these people loved the Lord and are now sharing in their inheritance from God but the time of a death is still rough for me. I think it is because it brings up so many questions that I mull over.

Peggy is the mother of a good friend of ours. I didn't know Peggy that well but I know her daughter and that tells me a lot about Peggy I think. From what I see through her daughter, Peggy loved God. She loved people too. The times I was around Peggy, she seemed full of life, always happy. I've known her daughter for several years and I have always seen someone who is caring, encouraging and joyful. I am confident that she got much of that from her mother.

I was blessed to know Jim. Jim always wore a smile and was encourager to everyone. He became one of my heroes when I was heading up Adult Education at our church and looking for teachers. I asked Jim and he turned me down. I got a call later that night and it was Jim. "Jeff, I need to teach. I need to do it for me and for my kids. They need to see a good example from me." Such sweet words from a gentle man. He later became an Elder in our church and someone I gained strength from. We had several conversations when some things weren't going the way we all wanted them and Jim would state what he felt we needed to do and end by saying, "we've just got to do it, Jeff. We gotta." He was one of the best cheerleaders I've ever known.

Peggy and Jim have gone on to a better place but they have left their spirit of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control with all of us.

Done and Out

I went to the Decatur boy's basketball game last night. They were taking on Argyle, ranked 6th or higher in the state (depending on the poll), who had beaten Decatur twice during the season. There wasn't much hope.

Decatur was up 22-17 at half but ended up losing 50-41. It was a great game and a great season for this group of kids. All year, they played tough, they never gave up when they were down, they were always fought through adversity. Argyle is good, I mean GOOD. Most of their kids work with private coaches. They are sound fundamentally and they shoot good from all over the court. They've got decent height inside and some speed on the perimeter.

The Decatur guys should hold their heads high for the effort they gave last night and all year. The good news is that 4 of the varsity players are sophomores. It should be a fun couple of years.
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Two races and Tony Stewart still hasn't won. Should I be throwing my hands up yet?
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The Mavericks are playing some incredible basketball right now. It's a shame Dirk and Josh don't get their due. They are incredible players and deserve more respect around the league than they get. It seems many of the "enlightened talking heads" of the sports world still don't think the Mavs have a shot at winning the championship this year. I hope they will be wrong.
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I don't care for Mark Cuban much. It's the only reason I won't care if the Mavs lose. He's another one of those people who appear to think that money gives them credibility. I know he does some good charitable work but he diminishes his image by his flambouyant ways.
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I'm tired of hearing about steriods in baseball. There's an easy solution that anyone not cheating should be in favor of. Use steriods, get caught, don't play and don't get paid. It seems simple enough. Yes, there are always new drugs, always new loopholes. They will have to be diligent but make the punishment fit the effort.
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As you can tell, I have no real thoughts running through my head today. It's one of those days that seems to be calling me back to bed for a few more hours. Maybe the brain will turn on eventually. I hope you have a great day.

Blessed Be Your Name

You give and take away,
You give and take away,
My heart will choose to say,
Lord, blessed be your name.

Today is my mom's birthday. Happy Birthday Mom! We spent last night celebrating by watching the Mavs beat up on the Atlanta Hawks. It was a fun game and a fun time to spend with my parents. What can I say about moms that hasn't been said other than I agree with it all? Moms do it all for their children. Moms are given a special mission from God and my mom did an excellent job accepting that role. As hard as I fought against her at times, she always did what she believed was best for me and I give her an A+. No parent is never perfect in all their actions (as my children would attest) but a parent who always loves, a parent who always give, a parent who always nurtures, a parent who always cares - they are perfect and my mom is one who always loves, always gives, always nurtures and always cares.

Thank you mom. I love you.
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I had intended today to be a post just about mom but as the verse from the song at the top of the blog, God gives and takes away. While out last night, I received two calls from my wife about deaths of people who are close to us and special to us. I didn't know one as well as the other but both have left legacies of a love for God, of Christian children, of goodness, of caring about others. My prayer today is that God will be with those families, to console, to comfort, to encourage and that those families will find comfort knowing their mom/father are now with God.
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To see the lyrics for Blessed Be Your Name, go to www.lyricsbox.com/matt-redman-lyrics-blessed-be-your-name-psf45jc.html

Go Mavs

I'm headed to the Mavericks game tonight. They are playing the lowly Atlanta Hawks so I don't know how much we will get to see Dirk and Josh play but I'm still looking forward to it. I'm taking my parents to see the game and hope it will be a good one. I'm not a big fan of pro basketball, I don't watch many games on TV and I don't get to very many games but it is still amazing what some of these guys can do. The Mavericks are building all the pressure for themselves this year with an incredible record. I heard on the radio the other day that the Mavs have the 4th best record at the all-star break in history and the teams that were in the 1st-3rd spot and the team that is now in the 5th spot on that list all won the NBA championship.
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The Rangers are in training camp and Sammy Sosa arrived the other day with hundreds of reporters following. On one hand, I'm disappointed they brought Sosa in because of the potential distraction and his recent past history. On the other hand, it may be good for the Rangers to get a bit more publicity, get a few more guys used to the circus atmosphere and, who knows, Sosa could be the next Frank Thomas. If not, it doesn't cost the Rangers much of anything and they still get a lot of publicity away from the east coast teams. Sounds like someone tore a page out of Jerry's playbook.
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Our preacher delivered a challenging message yesterday about prejudice. Whenever I hear the word, my immediate thought is towards race and while that is certainly still an issue, prejudice covers so much more for us in the church. Race, social class, clothing, history. I see it. I've done it. I've been more friendly to the people who looked and acted like me than I do to those who don't. I've been more accepting of the person I didn't know had a history of problems than the person I did know had a history of problems (gambling, porn, drinking, sex...you pick the problem).

I'm thankful for a Savior that doesn't qualify me.

We were talking about favorite scriptures in our class yesterday. I think one of my tops has to be Romans 5:8. To paraphrase, it says that God loves us so much that he sent his Son to die for us, even while we were sinners. Wow, I don't have to be perfect for God to save me. He doesn't separate people into groups but saved everyone that could fall into the "sinner" group.

That's power. That's awesomeness. That's true love.

It's Good to Have a Fan

I got an email from someone today saying they missed my blog. It's good to have a fan, an encourager, a supporter. It lifts your mood, brightens your day, puts a smile on your face. I'm thankful for those who encourage me. It's easy to get discouraged, to wonder if I make a difference. I think everyone shares in those feelings at times, as crazy as they are. I know I make a difference, you know you make a difference but it's always good to have a little acknowledgement of that.

In that spirit, thank you to:
-my wife. She is a supporter, an anchor, a source of security.
-my parents. As hard as I may have made it at times, you set me on a path that will carry me through eternity.
-my friends. I hope you know who you are. I cherish friendships.
-my God. Daily, I find myself wanting a closer relationship with you. Daily, I find myself needing you more in my life. Daily, I find myself wanting to praise you for what you have done for me. Daily, I try to take in more of you and put off more of me.

I hope you have a good day. I hope you know you make a difference in someone's life. I hope that today you will see God and His desire for you more clearly.

Why is it beautiful today and supposed to rain Saturday?

The weather pattern really needs to be more cooperative. Today, while I'm holed up in my office, it is beautiful and the forecast this morning predicted rain for Saturday. That's just not right.

I heard an argument on the radio yesterday about the most popular sport. The commentator said she was a huge hockey fan and really believed that there were more hockey fans than NASCAR fans. She said the NFL and NBA had a much larger number of fans than NASCAR and went on and on. It was obvious she doesn't watch NASCAR very much but I laughed at her efforts to downplay a motorsport that draws hundreds of thousands of people every weekend from mid-February into November.

My wife pointed out that Dale Hansen spoke up last Sunday stating that NASCAR drivers were great athletes. Most people don't know that Howard Cosell had made the same comment about race car drivers many years before on a MNF telecast. Heady stuff for motorheads everywhere.

The one thing I heard commentators from several different sports shows (I was driving a lot yesterday) discuss was the ending of the Daytona 500. One race car driver crossed the finish line upside down with his car on fire (he was OK after the race). I can't imagine a dunk, a home run, an eagle from 200 yards or any other sports feat more exciting than sliding across pavement on the roof of your car and flames coming out of it. It had to be one of the best 18th place finishes ever.

Jury Duty

I might have mentioned that I was recently "selected" to be on long-term jury duty. It lasts 6 months and if all goes well we will only meet one day each month.

I had planned to take part to all of today off because the kids are out of school. Instead, I'm working because I got a notice that I have to be at jury duty on Friday. Hmmmm, day off with family or day of listening to a range of stupid to horrible things people have done. My past interest in attending law school makes being a part of a jury somewhat interesting but all things considered, I'd prefer not to go. The other interesting aspect of it is the dynamic of the group. It's a fairly diverse group, some who are quiet and others who tell you exactly what they think, some who have been civil servants and others who own a business, some who have obvious religious convictions and some who are very cynical. From my interest in psychology point-of-view, this may be a more interesting aspect than the legal issues. I enjoy watching people and trying to figure them out. When I was in college, I would go to the local mall and sit on a bench just watching the people and coming up with what I thought was going through their heads. I still remember the day a kid came walking in with spiked hair, black clothes, gaudy rings on every finger - he was either part of a heavy metal band or a band of killers - and this older, petite, apparently upper-middle class lady stopped dead in her tracks staring at him. It was one of those moments that made bench watching worthwhile.

People are many different things and I know I will see that more and more in my service to local government.

There's a good chance I won't blog tomorrow as I plan to travel to some of our remote stores. Typing on the computer while driving just doesn't seem like a good idea.

Have a super day!

Brrrr....

It's cold in Decatur, Texas. My thermometer showed 14 degrees when I left this morning and arrived at work to find we had no running water. Uh-oh. Fortunately all is well now without problems it seems. This winter weather has been very odd and this morning makes it hard for me to wonder about global warming.

My daughter is leaving for a youth group retreat tonight and my wife will be gone for the evening for a class she is taking. It looks like my son and I will travel to the big city (Ft. Worth) to look for Under Armour baseball cleats. You see, not just any cleats will do. Under Armour will surely make him run faster, hit further, throw harder and excel on the baseball field. Under Armour batting gloves would only further improve his performance.

It's amazing how we get tied up in labels and brands. We certainly do our best at work to brand our customers and establish our brand in the marketplace as the premier place to buy tack and clothing for western enthusiasts. Has anyone heard of Bass Pro Shops? They've certainly stamped their brand on the outdoor community selling everything from fishing supplies to camo and guns. I'm a Rawlings guy for baseball gloves because I've always thought highly of their quality. In guns, I prefer Browning because my uncle thought they were good enough to buy and hunt with. I prefer Nike tennis shoes but will use New Balance also because they still use American made lasts.

What brands are you wearing? I look forward to some of your responses.

Open My Eyes

In case you missed it, there is a big world out there. I seem to forget that at times. There are wars going on. There are vicious crimes being committed. There are struggles for leadership of nations great and small. There's a big world out there and yet I'm forever concerned about what I will do at the next basketball practice or how baseball tryouts are coming or where I might go eat on Friday. I get so caught up in my own little world that I easily forget there is a big world out there. I can let someone else handle that. There are people smarter than me to think through what is going on so I can worry about so much minutiae in my own life.

As I prepare to talk to junior high and high school students tonight about what we are to be as Christians, it strikes me that I must be aware of the world around me if I am going to serve the world around me. Whether it is taking care of my own family, helping someone in the community or praying for someone in another country I have to be aware of those people and not trapped in thoughts about me. There is a big world out there, a world we are called to serve, and we cannot do it by thinking that someone else with more time, more skill, more "smarts" will go do it. We must be willing to go and to serve and to do so we must be aware.

It is something I struggle with. Too often I am aware of my own needs and desires and too little else. I hope today and tomorrow and the days that follow I will become better at being aware of those around me, those who need me, those I can serve. I serve a Master who is aware, I serve a Master who serves multitudes and that is something I must strive to copy. If I am to be the hands and feet of my Master, I must open my eyes to see past myself.

I Hate Being Wrong

A former NBA basketball player has recently announced to the world that he is gay. He has a book that will be released this week and has been in several news reports promoting his story and lifestyle.
I read a story on ESPN's web site today where the guy points out that those who have spoken out negatively are either naive or ignorant. Now, Mark Cuban has joined in the fray calling the guy a "hero" for being willing to tell his story.
Once again, a lack of tolerance towards homosexuality gets you branded as naive (the kindest of insults) or backwoods stupid (the ordinary type comment). On the other hand, tolerance towards a viewpoint based on the Bible is considered crazy. My ranting and raving about this won't change anything so I'll just pray that one day those who prefer the way of Satan to the way of God will change their minds, their actions and their words.
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On a brighter note, Spring Training starts in less than 2 weeks. I would love to be able to travel to Florida or Arizona and spend a few days watching workouts and games. The fresh cut grass, the sound a ball makes hitting the pocket of the glove, the sound of the bat hitting the ball, 90+mph fastballs and breaking balls that move 12 inches across the strike zone, climbing a wall to rob a home run and fireworks going off after a ball goes yard...it all starts soon. Let's play ball!

What in the world?

Last week, we in Wise County found out a 14 year old in Decatur had made a public death threat towards a teacher at the high school. I cannot imagine what is going through the minds of those involved - the child, his parents, the teacher and her family, other students. It's one of those events that makes me ask "Why?" and come up completely blank on answers.

It's scary to think someone so young could be thinking of that type of action, even scarier that he would make it public. Thank goodness he did though as his MySpace page was what alerted his mom and then she called the police. What causes a child to think that way? Is it his parents? Is it society? We don't know the answers and may never know or understand.

I know the teacher and have a high regard for her. I let her know she and her family were in my prayers and she responded that prayer is what is getting them through this ordeal. There is power in prayer, in people raising their voices to God, in asking Him for help for whatever the situation is. So often, I have seen the result of faithful prayer and I am ever-thankful we have that avenue to God.

There are so many things we can and should be praying about. If you haven't talked to God today, I encourage you to stop now and lift up praise and petition to him for whatever is on your heart. He is faithful and He will hear you.

It's Late...

...and I can't sleep. My brain will be dead in the morning so why not blog in the middle of the night? It's getting cold again and it looks like a wet weekend. I'm glad for the rain and enjoy the cold weather but would prefer it comes Monday through Thursday and then warms up with sunshine for the weekend.

The weekend is almost here. Spring training is near. Happy thoughts abound.

I was throwing the baseball with my son the other night and he said he could "smell" a game at the high school field. I assured him the game was the night before and out of town. He responded that he thought he could smell a baseball game. I laughed...the thinking of a 10 year old. We left to go to basketball practice and guess what...the JV was playing a game. I'll trust his sniffing ability from now on.

I'm getting sleepy...very, very sleepy. It's way past time to be in bed so I will go there now and I leave with this thought swirling in my head - I have been saved by a Savior whose mercy I cannot fathom, whose love I can never match, whose joy I can never exceed yet I am content that I have all I need. I hope I will show mercy to all who need it, that I will show love to all who seek it, that I will show joy to all who want it. More than that, I hope I show the glory of my God so that those who need mercy, seek love and want joy will turn to Him, to the one who can give it all with abundance and will accept what only He can bestow.

Wade Phillips?

ESPN is reporting that Wade Phillips will be the new head coach for the Dallas Cowboys. Say what? Norv Turner was getting skewered because of his record as head coach in other locales but I have not heard that much about Phillips record (which I don't remember being stellar). Maybe it's because the reporters are shell-shocked that he would be the choice. I know I am. I realize defense is important but the young QB is going to be a big part of where the team goes and while I like Jason Garrett (what little I know about him anyway), I'm not sure he is ready to develop a young QB that is so important to the success of the Cowboys.

I really wonder about Jerry sometimes. He has lots of money and apparently made some good decisions along the way but it's starting to look like Jimmy was his flash-in-the-pan good decision for this team.

Who do you think should be coaching the Cowboys? Do you think Landry or Johnson was the best coach the team has had? Do you think Barry Switzer was cognizant that he was coaching in the pro ranks or was just happy to get free hot dogs on the sideline?

If We Are the Body

There's a song I've heard recently by a contemporary Christian group titled "If We Are the Body." The premise of the song is that we sit in our churches and too often reflect the world instead of Christ. The chorus goes something like this, "if we are the body, why aren't his arms reaching, why aren't his feet going..." I don't like being called on the carpet. I don't like being indicted of something I've done wrong. It makes me defensive. Eventually though, I'll realize what I have done, whether intentionally or accidentally, has not been the right thing to do. This song has indicted me. I am comfortable sitting in my pew. I am comfortable going to class. I am comfortable. Should a Christian ever be comfortable? I would venture to say we should be content, content in our salvation, content in the fact that God has provided us all we really need but comfortable is something we should avoid.

Comfortable keeps us in our ruts. Comfortable keeps us inactive. Comfortable keeps us from being the hands and the feet, it keeps us from going.

Lord, don't let me be comfortable. If I am part of the body, if I am your hands and feet, put me to work, let me see what can be, let me glorify you. I know I will stumble Lord. When I do, help me up Lord and set me back on your path. Let me remember others will also stumble and let your hands and feet (me) rush to help them up, to wrap your arms around them and help them find their way back to you. Lord, let me share your love, your mercy, your peace with others and them with me. Make me content that all I need is you and my comfort be that you have given me a home with you, a home greater than anything I can know now.

Crushing Defeat

My 5th grade boys team lost to Bridgeport Saturday. It's always bad to lose but losing to B'port makes it worse. If just a few of our missed shots would have gone in, it would be a different story but no such luck. We have one more game - a must win to make the playoffs.
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I heard the Colts won the big game Sunday. I was at the rodeo so I haven't seen the game or the commercials. I've got it all Tivo'd but don't know that I'll end up watching it. Now all eyes turn to who the Cowboys are going to hire and Jerry in the spotlight.
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Our preacher is taking us through Acts on Sunday mornings. I always like to study Acts, to read and think about the early church, what they went through and what they did. It always causes me to examine my life and my ways and to attempt to reconcile them with what God wants from me. Am I sacrificing, teaching, edifying, serving the way God wants me to. Is my focus on God or on me?

I pray my focus and my desire will be more on God and less on me.

Winter Wonderland

We woke up this morning to a beautiful blanket of snow on the ground and truck. It is a beautiful sight to see and something the kids really, really enjoy. I think they would have much preferred staying home and throwing snowballs or building a snowman but school was open so off we went.
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I'm glad the weekend is almost here. It's been a busy week at work and compounded with illness and I'm ready to rest and catch up. Decatur plays Argyle tonight and I can't miss that so the rest will come after the game.
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I won't be worried about global warming this weekend.
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I read on the Internet about an Indianapolis area church that was advertising a Super Bowl party and would be showing the game from a projector so everyone could see. The NFL threatened to sue them if they didn't cancel the party because using Super Bowl in the ad was a copyright infringement and the game cannot legally be broadcast on a screen bigger than 55". I'm sure there's a reason for that but in my mind it's another example of punishing the 99 good people for the 1 bad person.

I'm up in the air on who I will be pulling for. I don't like Indianapolis because they play in a dome and I do like Chicago because they play in the elements. I like Tony Dungy and Lovie Smith. I like Peyton and Freeney. I like Urlacher and Manning, the ACU kid. In the end, I'm only semi-interested but hope it will be a good game.

Who are you rooting for?
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Have a good day and a good weekend!

They Beat Me Down

Blogger finally made me switch. I'm not a fan of the new blogger because posting a response isn't as easy as it was on the old Blogger. The Tab button doesn't tab you to the right fields. I hope the complaint department is listening.
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I've got some sort of sinus thing going on and not feeling too great today. I certainly can't eat a Sonic coney so don't even go there. Being sick makes for a long day and really makes me appreciate feeling good.
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I spoke to the Junior High and High School class last night about influence. I brought up the chants the Decatur students have used in basketball games and mentioned the moment last year when my son asked what a certain not-so-nice phrase meant. You could have heard a pin drop at that moment. I'm hoping that was the moment a few of them realized that eyes are watching them. I'm hoping a few them may realize and use their influence for good starting today. I hope I reached someone last night.
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Our preacher's wife is planning for a trip to Kenya in just a few months. She is going with a group of ladies who go and have a meeting/conference/fellowship/support gathering for women involved in mission work in that part of the world. Planning and going on a trip like that is tiring and a little scary but also very fulfilling. Our missions committee was able to help support a portion of her trip and I'm thankful for that opportunity and thankful for the work she and many other Christian women will do to help carry the gospel all over the world. Thanks Beverly for your dedication and compassion. (And thanks to Rick for supporting her to go also.)

The New Blogger

For the past several weeks, each time I sign on I'm encouraged to try the new version of this software and each time I decline. Shortly, I will have to switch and I don't think there is much to the change but it's just the dread of changing, even for something as simple as this. I won't make this a big blog-lecture on adapting to change but you get the idea...I'm just getting old.
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Barbaro was put down yesterday. He's the horse that one the Kentucky Derby (I think) and then broke his back leg in the Preakness (I think). It was all over the news, even a spot on ESPN Sports Center. It always strikes me that someone or something with a little bit of fame can generate so much press and yet we lose people everyday who have truly touched other lives in a positive way that go unnoticed. What a shame.
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The Cowboys have to be closer to finding a new head coach and I find that I couldn't care less. It's interesting to see the process and wonder what Jerry Jones will do because he's made so many off-the-wall decisions in the past. I'm starting to believe that the combination with Jimmy Johnson was lightning in a bottle that may never appear again.
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The Rangers signed Sammy Sosa. Interesting. If you are interested in sharing in some Rangers season tickets, let me know. We have a small group and need one or two more to join in. We have 4 seats and you will get to pick 13-14 games during the year.
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That's all for now. I know this has been a special time for you. (haha)

The Battle

I've been battling computer, car and time problems today. My truck died yesterday so they had to tow it in today. Fortunately it was no big deal except for the hassle. My computer started acting up Friday and I just got it back up (2:50p) today. It's very frustrating when 50% of my job demands my computer. On top of that, I was supposed to go out of town for a business trip while having a myriad of things to still finish here and deadlines and time constraints the rest of the week. It's been a stressful, frustrating morning.

I finally postponed my trip after a moment of clarity. I was able to see what needed to be done and how it could be accomplished and am feeling much better than I have all day.

The devil works on us like that. He wants everything rushing around us, stirring up dust so that we can't see God. Fortunately, for all the devil's work, we are able to gain moments of clarity, moments where we can see God and know He sees us and things become much better. I'm thankful for every time I cut through the devil's work and find clarity between God and me. It's those moments when I feel a sense of peace unlike anything else I know. Of course, as soon as I feel it I know the devil is back at work trying to block my vision but I know God is still there, still reaching out to me, still waiting for me so I can know His peace.

I Remember When...

I remember when I started working in Decatur and we moved here a while later. There was very little crime. It seemed like the crime report was published in the paper and you would see a few bikes stolen and a few other seemingly minor incidents for the most part. At the time, I think there had only been one murder in the previous 10+ years. Today that has all changed. There is a high incident of theft and there have been a number of murders. Drug labs and drug use is way up and arrests for them rise with it.

Looking at Decatur over the past 12 twelves, I can understand why so many people who had grown up here wanted to keep it the way it was. I was quickly one of them thinking, just let me move here and then shut the gates. It doesn't work that way though and now we are seeing a lot of the bad that comes with Lowes and Chili's. Oh, I'm not blaming Lowes and Chili's - it's the growth of an area that brings in good people and bad people.

Today, I think about being burglarized at business this way - not if, but when. I hate to think that way and I would love to see things back the way they were but it doesn't work that way. Hopefully, Decatur will be able to maintain as much of it's old charm and down-home feeling awhile longer because I remember when...

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Addendum to Wednesday's post...

First, I didn't realize how many people are out there reading blogs and was surprised by people telling me they had read mine. It's scary in a way. First, I have a comfort level thinking I'm writing for myself but that there are only 6-8 people and 1 Sonic coney fiend reading it. Second, it hit me that what is written on the web is there for all the world to see so be careful what you write. Third, I realize that as I come down off my soapbox, I have faults of my own that certainly need to be addressed.

That said, there is one disappointment I left out of Wednesday's post. I'm also disappointed that a bunch of parents must think it's OK to say what our kids are saying. What are they teaching?

The response I got that hit home was from a friend who said they didn't enjoy having to explain to their young child what the phrases meant. That's exactly what I was thinking a year ago when my then 9 year old son asked, "Daddy, what does screwed mean?" That question should not have had to come up at that time and that place. Now, at 10 he has a sense of what it means and wonders why it's OK for the big kids to say it.

Finally, I'm thankful for some parents I know that have told their high school kids it is unacceptable. What a simple but wholesome response.

Have a great weekend.

Disappointment

I went to the Decatur-Bridgeport basketball game last night. Decatur put a thumping on them so that was a good thing but during the game I heard something that really disappointed me. There are two cheers the Decatur students use, one having the phrase "Haile yeah" (it supposedly refers to an actual student with the last name Haile) and another when a ref makes a 'bad' call where they chant "we got screwed." I brought this up with some people last year and know it made it's way to the Principal. I have not talked to her directly but the alleged response was "what can we do." So I ask, who's running the asylum? It sounds as if it is the inmates.

I understand that teenagers would get a momentary enjoyment from saying these things in public, as a group. I would have probably gladly joined in when I was younger although I would have had to duck so my dad didn't see me saying it. Last night, it just sounded classless. And, in my opinion, makes the school and the administrators look classless.

I could see some schools in our district where this might not be surprising - and maybe some people feel that way about Decatur.

It's disappointing to me that the administrators take the hands-off approach they do but no surprise why the students defend them. If they can't control the situation at the school gym on school property at a school function, it's not a place I'm excited to send my children. I know there are many good educators there, several who care about the kids and will do their best to teach them what is good and bad, right and wrong. Unfortunately, it doesn't look like they get much support from the top.

It's a downer post today but I needed to vent.

State of the Union

The President is speaking tonight. I feel for him. I don't think he can say anything without getting picked apart for it at this point. I saw a poll today saying only 33% of those polled think he's doing a good job. Add Hillary to the mix and I'm sure the camera time will be split at best.

President Bush has a high hill to climb to make headway with the American public. I hear and read about long time Republican and/or Bush supporters that have questioned his decisions much more often and vocally than ever before. Tonight has to be a tough night for him.

I will be at basketball practice. There were a period of several years when I wouldn't have missed the President's speech. I stayed up to watch election coverage, read the papers to see who was who and what they were doing. Now, I find myself being one of those who are more apathetic to the process. I don't think the media is fair. I don't the candidates are so different nor trustworthy. I don't think we have elected officials who care about the good of the country as much as they do themselves.

I hope I'm misreading what is going on. I hope I am seeing it wrong and will snap out of this funk to find that the leaders and decision-makers of our country do care about us and do make decisions they truly believe will benefit the people of this country. I still have hope.

1/2 Right

I wanted to see New Orleans and Indianapolis in the Super Bowl. Instead we may be overrun with "2 black coaches in the Super Bowl" headlines for the next couple of weeks. I realize it's a big occasion and maybe I don't have an appreciation for the significance of it but I hope it doesn't come down to color, color, color. I've been a fan of Tony Dungy for several years. He appears to be a real class act. Lovie Smith seems much the same though I know much less about him. I hope what comes out in the press is more about what good people they are, not what color they are.

Chicago and Indy would probably have been my second choice for teams. I like Manning and wanted to see him break through his playoff jinx. In my mind, the Bears tradition is as great as any team and I like the way Urlacher plays. It ought to be a good game - offense vs. defense.

Predictions?

Hey, Coach...

I have coached youth sports for several years. I started out helping our preacher in Fort Worth when he was coaching his son's team, then helping a friend here coach his son's team and the last nine years or so coaching my daughter and son's teams. I've coached basketball (my passion), baseball (a growing passion because my son loves it) and soccer (I was completely clueless) and had great experiences in all of them. My goal in coaching has always been to 1) make it fun and 2) teach fundamentals that will help the children as they grow. I've been around too many youth coaches who coach to win now and don't help the kids develop. It used to really get under my skin. I remember coaching one of my son's early games and the other coach put her tallest player on my shortest player all in an effort to score more points in the last quarter and win. At that time we couldn't change the players around once we placed them and we were stuck in that predicament. What did it do to my little guys enjoyment of basketball? What did it teach her tall kid? They won and in the end they got the same medal we did and I'm pretty sure the kid didn't sign a scholarship or pro contract after the game.

I coach because I want to see the kids succeed in the years to come. Winning or losing a game today isn't the most important thing (even though I replay the losses in my mind for hours after a game). My hope is that what I teach them now will prepare them for what they will do in the future. That is the real success in coaching.

I pray that in the end, they won't just learn basketball or baseball from me but something greater. I hope I can touch them in a way that will open the door to something far greater than athletic success but success in making the decisions that will carry them through eternity.

A White Blanket

We awoke this morning to a white blanket of snow on the ground and another day of school closure. The kids are happy today but don't realize they will be making it up on days that would have been much nicer to be out of school. I guess it's always fun to be out of school, no matter the weather, and hitting your brother or sister with a snowball or two makes it even better.
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I stayed up to watch Texas and Oklahoma State battle through 3 overtimes last night. In the end, OSU came out on top but it was a great game to watch and even Rick Barnes, Texas' coach couldn't help but smile through the final two OT's.

Kevin Durant sure looks like the real deal. He had been projected as the #2 NBA pick in last year's draft but a new NBA rule prohibits most kids from going straight to the pros from high school so he has to spend a year at Texas (the kid projected to go #1 in last year's draft is a 7-footer named Greg Oden playing at Ohio State this year). Based on how he is playing this year, he will still be worthy of a top-3 pick next year.
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I'm helping our youth minister on Wednesday nights now working with our junior high and high school group. I'm speaking next week to the group and the scripture that immediately popped into my head has been a long time favorite - Philippians 4:8. If we followed the directive given all the time, I wonder what the world would be like. I wonder if people couldn't help but get along. I wonder if nations would cooperate instead of fight. I wonder.

Still, in all my hope that the world and the people of the world could find peace, it isn't peace in this world that I care the most for. I want to see peace here and now so that my children will grow up in a safer place but more than that, I have the hope that I and that they will spend eternity with God. That is something truly admirable, truly noble, truly good to think about.

Ice Ice Baby

I was singing part of the Vanilla Ice song (his only "hit") to my daughter the other day. Maybe I shouldn't have. Ice abounds today. I was glad to only see one other car on the road while I was on my way to work but you just never know what will happen. I remember when I was younger, maybe 13 or so and a friend's sister was driving he and I somewhere in Tyler. We were on the loop when she hit a patch of ice and her Mustang started spinning in circles. When it finally stopped, she was so scared it took us what seemed like several of minutes to start driving again.

So what are you doing today? Did you use the ice as a reason to stay home or did you head out in it going to work or Wal-Mart? I would much rather stay at home but no such luck today. I'll leave a bit earlier than usual just to miss the yahoos out speeding home who might hit that one patch of ice that sends us all spinning.

Have a great day and don't slip.

Brrrrrrrr....

It sounds like we might need to get prepared for an icy blast in Wise County. I love the cold weather. I don't know that I would if I lived somewhere that the cold lasts very long but maybe I would. I think some of my joy in it is due to being hot natured. My wife is the complete opposite which gives the thermostat a workout through much of the year. I like it cold. I like to put on a coat, put on gloves and a hat and trudge through the cold. People around me have often heard my goofy statement that "you can always put more clothes on but you can only take so much off before going to jail" and that's my mentality on the weather. I'm confident you are glad to know that about me. :)
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I used to be a current events fanatic. I loved watching the news, reading US News and World Report and local and national papers. Today, I'm not sure I could tell you what is going on around me except for a battle in Iraq. Baseball and basketball keep me busy a couple of nights a week, some areas I'm getting more involved in at church is taking more of my time, work is certainly eating up bigger chunks of time recently. They are all good things that I am enjoying and thankful for but occassionally I sit back and wonder where things changed so much. I guess I find it interesting to stop and look back at the twists and turns of the path I've traveled to be where I am now. Things that were once enjoyable, if not seemingly important are nothing more than a memory now. I wonder what will happen with the things I enjoy and feel important now? (There's a moral to that story somewhere in there, I just haven't thought it through yet.)
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Oprah opened a new school for girls in Africa. It was all over the news (that was one story I couldn't miss if I tried) and she is hailed as a great person for doing it. Bush, on the other hand, is a modern day villian in many folks eyes because he has tried to eliminate a harsh world for people in Iraq and give them a hope for a little bit better life. I have a suspicion (and could be completely wrong) that Oprah and her followers are opposed to what is going on in Iraq and all goo-goo over what she did in Africa. One question, could Oprah have ever accomplished what she did without past wars to eliminate oppressive control by government?
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Bundle up.

A Total Blank

The state of my mind today is...a complete and hopeless vacuum of nothingness. I can't come up with a coherent thought to save my life. It's your lucky day! So, I'll leave you with these profound thoughts.

The President speaks tonight. I want to hear it because I feel he is now in a no-win situation. I think he's a good guy but has put our troops and country in a bad position that leaves little opportunity for a good ending. Saddam may be done but it seems there are hundreds if not thousands of people willing to carry his battle on.

I enjoyed seeing Florida win the NCAA National Championship even though the game got a little boring in the end. There's no Big Ten team I care for much and now that Spurrier has left, it's easier to like Florida in this type of game.

Basketball season is here finally. It's the games that count and March Madness will be here soon. It is my favorite sporting event/time of the year when college basketball whips up a frenzy on TV and on the court. You can have the pro basketball but I'll watch almost any college game any time.

I took my son to a select baseball team tryout last Sunday and he did great. It was fun to see him do well and enjoy himself. We won't know the results until this weekend and I'm hoping we can still put a Decatur team together but it's great to have options - even better to see him doing something he enjoys and doing it well.

Have a great day!

If You See A Computer On The Street...

it's one of mine. Tonight has been an exercise in self-control and I just lost the battle. A computer has driven me to a level of frustration that is ridiculous. The only reason I can write about it here is because you use a computer too and I'm pretty sure you've been where I am now. I want to throw the thing out the door and pray that a big truck runs over it. Things are at a stage where I know it can be fixed, I just can't seem to do it which is what is really driving my blood pressure through the roof. The silver box is silently taunting me, laughing at me, mocking me. I can feel it. If you hear loud screaming tonight, it will be trying to communicate with this thing.
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Go Gators! I'm enjoyed watching Florida tonight. I'm no Big 10 fan and since Spurrier has left Florida, I feel I can cheer for them in these situations. I'm one of those who thought Michigan certainly DID NOT deserve another chance in the title game and also thinks the SEC is the toughest overall conference in football. I don't know much about Urban Meyer but he seems like a good guy and I hope Florida wins it tonight.
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Tomorrow will be a new day. I am hopeful all the computers will work and all the people are nice.

A Week Almost Gone

Did you see the Boise State/OU game earlier in the week? It was an exciting win for a small school that most thought would struggle against the bigger, more seasoned Sooners. I was cheering for Boise State from the beginning but had little hope they could pull it out. What a game and what a group of young men. From the smile on the coach's face to the marriage proposal on the sideline, it was a fabulous night for the guys from Boise.
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Good Morning America had a new set of NYC heroes on TV this morning. It seems a small child had crawled out a window on to a fire escape and was barely holding on when these two men saw the child. They positioned themselves to catch him as the child dropped from the fire escape and through some trees and into their arms. The subway hero had earlier in the day encouraged people to find ways to do good things. It sounds like New York City is off to a good start.
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Randy Warzecha, our missionary in Brazil, is getting married this weekend. Keep him in your prayers as he and Angela begin a new life together.
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I hope you have a great weekend, that you enjoy the life God has given you and that you seek ways to glorify Him in whatever you are doing.

On Hold

I am sitting here on hold for almost 15 minutes now wanting to speak with someone about software I want to acquire. I think it will help us but I am beginning to wonder if this is the service level I can expect. I wonder if it will really help me since no one seems to be in much of a hurry to answer my questions.

While I'm sitting here, I've started wondering how many times someone wanted me to share the Gospel with them but I put them on hold, I didn't have the urgency I needed to share information, to share the Good News, with someone that could change their life. I am guessing there are people I see every day that are on hold and I am not picking up the call.

I pray God will give me the courage and the urgency to take the call and share the knowledge that will give people what they need to truly live.

A New Day

It seems like I haven't blogged since last year. Ha-ha.

I was asked today what my new year resolution was. It's a good question and something I don't know that I approach the right way. The answer is that I do not make new year resolutions. Maybe I should be I don't. I have all the rote issues like losing weight, exercising and all that stuff that I need to do all the time. Other than that, I just want to live each day looking for the opportunities to do the right thing, to help someone, to be a good example for someone, to encourage someone. Maybe that is my resolution. I know God puts opportunities in front of me all the time. I want to recognize them and act on them when they come my way. I know I will fail at some but hope that I will be successful in making a difference in people's lives as much as I can.

It is continually amazing how fast a year goes by. I see my children growing up before me and, like so many, want to stop time, to capture a few more days with them at this precious time in their lives yet I know that isn't going to happen. In the absence of stopping time, I want to enjoy the time, to know that it is fleeting and to spend it in pursuit of enjoying them every minute I can, to teaching them all I can in that time and preparing them for what lies ahead.

This year will be over in a flash. I will start enjoying the moments I can today so that when I reach this point a year from now I can trust that it has been a good year because I have spent it with people I love.