Happy birthday to me! Nope, it's not today but I've got a great bunch of friends who have supported by effort to raise $500 for Charity:Water during this birthday month. Not only did they help me reach my goal - they doubled it! $1,004 is going to Charity:Water to dig water wells and provide clean drinking water for people who are literally dying for it. I'm pumped and can't thank those who participated enough.
In a few hours we will send out 2010 and step into 2011. For some of us, 2010 won't be missed but, unfortunately, we cannot run away from the hurts and pains this year brought our way. Not only that, we are going into the unknown. Who knows what 2011 will be? Are we usually hopeful for a better year? Yes, of course. Then again, I was hopeful for 2010 to be a great year...and it wasn't.
Here are my 2011 resolutions:
1. Write better. I go back and re-read some of my blogs and crack up where I can tell I combined two thoughts into one sentence without taking grammar into consideration. We'll see how it goes.
2. To make no more resolutions. I'm not sure I can resolve to not resolve but I'm done making plans, goals and resolutions in a life I have little, if any, control of. I just want God to open my eyes to what He places in front of me and seize the opportunities He gives me. I want to live in His plans which will be far superior to mine.
Please don't think I'm advocating that for everyone...it's for me. I'm not going to workout or eat better or read more and be kinder just because I said it's something I want to do on January 1st. Heck, I've been wanting to do all that for years and where is "wanting to" getting me? I either will or I won't but I don't want to get bogged down in all that; only in what God has in store for me.
I want to share John Wesley's Covenant Prayer with you again. I posted it on September 21 and I'm trying again to speak it with conviction each morning. I leave it with you as a thought for how to live out 2011. Wesley's Covenant Prayer
Happy New Year and may it be filled with grace and peace for you.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
The Valley of Death
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for You are with me. Psalm 23:4
Good words to live by. I wonder why I often choose not to. I live in fear at times. Fear of doing the wrong thing/saying the wrong thing/disappointing someone/hurting someone/being hurt/of what I can imagine that may never happen/the unknown/things I know but cannot change. I could go on.
A friend reminded me today that scripture says I am walking through it, not camping in it. Oh, I suppose I can choose to camp there and maybe that changes the dynamics of things. However, if I choose to walk it out, to walk through the valley, God is there with me. It may be scary and ugly and all sorts of things but I don't have to fear the bad if God is there.
It's a good idea but one I haven't yet grasped, one I don't yet live by. I trust, though, that if I will continue to draw near to God, if I will continue to run into His arms that I will learn to walk without fear.
Grace and peace to you.
Good words to live by. I wonder why I often choose not to. I live in fear at times. Fear of doing the wrong thing/saying the wrong thing/disappointing someone/hurting someone/being hurt/of what I can imagine that may never happen/the unknown/things I know but cannot change. I could go on.
A friend reminded me today that scripture says I am walking through it, not camping in it. Oh, I suppose I can choose to camp there and maybe that changes the dynamics of things. However, if I choose to walk it out, to walk through the valley, God is there with me. It may be scary and ugly and all sorts of things but I don't have to fear the bad if God is there.
It's a good idea but one I haven't yet grasped, one I don't yet live by. I trust, though, that if I will continue to draw near to God, if I will continue to run into His arms that I will learn to walk without fear.
Grace and peace to you.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
More Pruning
On Christmas Eve, I was talking to my dad outside the house and he began talking about a flower bed that's in the middle of the yard. He was telling me how the plants quit growing and even though they watered more, it didn't help because so much stuff had built up around the plant's roots. When they pulled all the mulch and bark and other stuff out of the bed and cut the plants down dramatically did the plants began accepting water and growing.
I couldn't help but be reminded that is how life is for most of us. At some point, we have to be cut down and have all the stuff pulled out from around us because we aren't accepting what can help us grow. We have to be pruned so we can grow and blossom more brilliantly. It's not a new lesson but one that was good to be reminded of.
Grace and peace to you.
I couldn't help but be reminded that is how life is for most of us. At some point, we have to be cut down and have all the stuff pulled out from around us because we aren't accepting what can help us grow. We have to be pruned so we can grow and blossom more brilliantly. It's not a new lesson but one that was good to be reminded of.
Grace and peace to you.
Monday, December 27, 2010
2010 On The Way Out
2010 is winding down and in another weak I'll be messing up checks by writing the wrong year. I'm ready for '10 to be over and done with. Going into 2011 doesn't undo anything that happened in the past year, it's just the idea that new things will come in a new year and I pray that much of it is creates positive moments in my life and in the life of the people who are close to me and the people I have shared too much pain with in this year.
I got these excerpts from John Eldredge...
You are not your sin; sin is no longer the truest thing about the man who has come into union with Jesus. Your heart is good. "I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you" (Ezek. 36:26). The Big Lie in the church today is that you are nothing more than "a sinner saved by grace." You are a lot more than that. You are a new creation in Christ. The New Testament calls you a saint, a holy one, a son of God.The real you is on the side of God against the false self. Knowing this makes all the difference in the world. The man who wants to live valiantly will lose heart quickly if he believes that his heart is nothing but sin. Why fight?
These words remind me of things some dear friends have told me but that I have trouble accepting for myself. I hope 2011 will bring more understanding and belief that I am loved as I am...warts and all.
Grace and peace to you.
I got these excerpts from John Eldredge...
You are not your sin; sin is no longer the truest thing about the man who has come into union with Jesus. Your heart is good. "I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you" (Ezek. 36:26). The Big Lie in the church today is that you are nothing more than "a sinner saved by grace." You are a lot more than that. You are a new creation in Christ. The New Testament calls you a saint, a holy one, a son of God.The real you is on the side of God against the false self. Knowing this makes all the difference in the world. The man who wants to live valiantly will lose heart quickly if he believes that his heart is nothing but sin. Why fight?
These words remind me of things some dear friends have told me but that I have trouble accepting for myself. I hope 2011 will bring more understanding and belief that I am loved as I am...warts and all.
Grace and peace to you.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Merry Christmas!
My hope today is that families will find joy in being together and that the hurting will find peace, that the hope that came through Jesus will be known by everyone one day and that love will reign on earth.
Grace and peace to you.
Grace and peace to you.
Friday, December 24, 2010
Christmas Eve 2010
Today is an anticipatory day. Santa is on his way. Tomorrow most of us will wake up with toys or underwear or a new iron and stockings full of candy to tide us over between desserts. Today is the last shot to get out there and grab something for a parent or spouse and maybe catch a last minute markdown. Or, in my case, a few lottery tickets because I lack imagination and gambling is ok on Christmas. I remember watching Harold Taft tracking Santa on the ten o'clock news. I remember going to bed and not wanting to sleep waiting on Santa to drop by and my parents waking me up to see the cool stuff. I remember the excitement of my own children in their early Christmases and the knowing smiles of Santa's identity while saying nothing as they got older.
Christmas has come to mean many things over the years and that changes again this year for me. Challenges of a new life paradigm and challenge of typing a blog post on my iPad for the first time. That said, today remains anticipatory of the hope tomorrow brings because the day is about the hope that entered the world in the flesh, the hope embodied by the Christ.
I hope as Christmas day approaches that all the folks who want to keep Christ in Christmas will keep Christ in their life, their words and their actions each and everyday. I hope that the world will come to know the peace we can have because of what these days represent.
I wish you all a Merry Christmas and hope that you will be reminded of hope regardless of the situation you find yourself in this Christmas.
Grace and peace to you.
Christmas has come to mean many things over the years and that changes again this year for me. Challenges of a new life paradigm and challenge of typing a blog post on my iPad for the first time. That said, today remains anticipatory of the hope tomorrow brings because the day is about the hope that entered the world in the flesh, the hope embodied by the Christ.
I hope as Christmas day approaches that all the folks who want to keep Christ in Christmas will keep Christ in their life, their words and their actions each and everyday. I hope that the world will come to know the peace we can have because of what these days represent.
I wish you all a Merry Christmas and hope that you will be reminded of hope regardless of the situation you find yourself in this Christmas.
Grace and peace to you.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Thankfulness - Part 2
It's the season of gift giving and gift receiving. Some gifts are outrageously good, some outrageously hideous. Some gifts are expensive and rare, some inexpensive and personal. Some gifts require little thought, others bathed in love. Whatever the gift, it requires a giver and a receiver.
When I was a kid, I was perfectly acceptable to getting as many gifts as possible. I accepted them freely and with great joy. Gifts big and small, expensive and free...I took the approach of bring one, bring all. Something has changed though. Now, I would rather not receive any gifts. Oh, I'll still take them but I would be just about as happy without a gift as with a gift. I credit that to something that has followed me for many years, the feeling of not being worthy of receiving gifts. Or, the feeling that whatever is given to me needs to be returned with something just as valuable, if not more. This year is no different than several past. I received a gift from a friend that was far more valuable than what I could give in return and I'm still not sure I'm going to be able to simply accept it. I don't feel worthy of such a gift because I can't do anything to match it.
I think it's why I have so much trouble being thankful to my Lord. He has given me a gift that I feel unworthy to receive, a gift that I can't return with equal value. My trouble accepting physical gifts is very similar to my trouble accepting that I am loved unconditionally and that my salvation is secure.
Maybe the this year's gift will be a part of the learning process God wants me to experience so I can receive His good and perfect and priceless gift. Maybe if I can learn to accept gifts on earth I'll learn to accept the gifts God has freely given me without hope of reciprocation. Maybe.
Grace and peace to you.
When I was a kid, I was perfectly acceptable to getting as many gifts as possible. I accepted them freely and with great joy. Gifts big and small, expensive and free...I took the approach of bring one, bring all. Something has changed though. Now, I would rather not receive any gifts. Oh, I'll still take them but I would be just about as happy without a gift as with a gift. I credit that to something that has followed me for many years, the feeling of not being worthy of receiving gifts. Or, the feeling that whatever is given to me needs to be returned with something just as valuable, if not more. This year is no different than several past. I received a gift from a friend that was far more valuable than what I could give in return and I'm still not sure I'm going to be able to simply accept it. I don't feel worthy of such a gift because I can't do anything to match it.
I think it's why I have so much trouble being thankful to my Lord. He has given me a gift that I feel unworthy to receive, a gift that I can't return with equal value. My trouble accepting physical gifts is very similar to my trouble accepting that I am loved unconditionally and that my salvation is secure.
Maybe the this year's gift will be a part of the learning process God wants me to experience so I can receive His good and perfect and priceless gift. Maybe if I can learn to accept gifts on earth I'll learn to accept the gifts God has freely given me without hope of reciprocation. Maybe.
Grace and peace to you.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Thankfulness - Part 1
What does a person do when they have eternity to be thankful for but a day coming up at the end of the week that they are dreading profusely? What does a person do when they can't see past the pain they know is coming even though they are surrounded by people who love them? How do you help someone be thankful for all that they have when there is a depth of pain that is immense for what they don't have?
I have joined a group of people who dread Christmas. For years, especially the last 16, Christmas morning has been something I looked forward to. This year, I would prefer to be oblivious to it's existence because it is not as it has been, not as I have come to expect, not as I dream it would remain. The enormity of my pain as I think about that day is working to block out all that is good in my life. It is easier to be sad than to be thankful. It is easier to imagine being alone on that day than sharing it with people. It is easier, but somewhere deep down, I know it isn't beneficial for me. So, I will join friends in activities on that day hoping to be distracted from the force that wants my heart to hurt and my mind to send a barrage of negative thoughts like a loop that never ends.
I have never been able to understand the pain people face at Christmas until now. And, not that I understand everyone's pain, but I do have a sense of how pain can occur and how it can shake their foundation. If you are one of those who find this Christmas to be something you dread, I hurt for you. If you are one who still lives in the joy of Christmas, in the joy of the smiles and laughs of children and family, in the joy of remembering that what we are really celebrating is the hope for the future that was brought into the world through the birth of Jesus, relish it and try to share it with your friends who are hurting. Whether they will accept it or not, it helps to know you care and that there remains much to be thankful for whether we all want to believe it right now or not.
I know my words are not adequate for all who are hurting or all who can't wait for Christmas to be here. I hope, in the absence of my ability to convey the right words, that you will hear the voice of God tell you what He wants you to know...and do...and that thankfulness will rule this season.
Grace and peace to you.
I have joined a group of people who dread Christmas. For years, especially the last 16, Christmas morning has been something I looked forward to. This year, I would prefer to be oblivious to it's existence because it is not as it has been, not as I have come to expect, not as I dream it would remain. The enormity of my pain as I think about that day is working to block out all that is good in my life. It is easier to be sad than to be thankful. It is easier to imagine being alone on that day than sharing it with people. It is easier, but somewhere deep down, I know it isn't beneficial for me. So, I will join friends in activities on that day hoping to be distracted from the force that wants my heart to hurt and my mind to send a barrage of negative thoughts like a loop that never ends.
I have never been able to understand the pain people face at Christmas until now. And, not that I understand everyone's pain, but I do have a sense of how pain can occur and how it can shake their foundation. If you are one of those who find this Christmas to be something you dread, I hurt for you. If you are one who still lives in the joy of Christmas, in the joy of the smiles and laughs of children and family, in the joy of remembering that what we are really celebrating is the hope for the future that was brought into the world through the birth of Jesus, relish it and try to share it with your friends who are hurting. Whether they will accept it or not, it helps to know you care and that there remains much to be thankful for whether we all want to believe it right now or not.
I know my words are not adequate for all who are hurting or all who can't wait for Christmas to be here. I hope, in the absence of my ability to convey the right words, that you will hear the voice of God tell you what He wants you to know...and do...and that thankfulness will rule this season.
Grace and peace to you.
Monday, December 20, 2010
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That's the feeling when you try to copy and paste something into your blog and can't get it to format properly.
I'll skip the humorous story I was going to share. Just laugh and play like you read something funny.
Our Bible class yesterday was on the idea of thankfulness. It was a great class because a) the teacher used a funny analogy or two I might try to repeat here, b) it made me think of some thoughts I have long held that I might share here in the coming days that won't square with the norm and c) it made me realize I'm not really living in thankfulness right now. Oh, I'm thankful for plenty of things but my outlook and demeanor isn't one of thankfulness. Not right now.
Well, there's work to be done and shopping finished. I hope you get it all done without pulling your hair out.
Grace and peace to you.
I'll skip the humorous story I was going to share. Just laugh and play like you read something funny.
Our Bible class yesterday was on the idea of thankfulness. It was a great class because a) the teacher used a funny analogy or two I might try to repeat here, b) it made me think of some thoughts I have long held that I might share here in the coming days that won't square with the norm and c) it made me realize I'm not really living in thankfulness right now. Oh, I'm thankful for plenty of things but my outlook and demeanor isn't one of thankfulness. Not right now.
Well, there's work to be done and shopping finished. I hope you get it all done without pulling your hair out.
Grace and peace to you.
Friday, December 17, 2010
Bang, Bang
I had the opportunity to go bird hunting this week and thoroughly enjoyed my time in the field. I wished we would have seen more birds and that the wind wasn't blowing so hard but we can always hope for perfect days, can't we? It was good to work behind dogs again, to hear the rise of a covey of quail and to see a dog retrieve a downed bird. Those days remind me of days gone by and places hunted in my past and wonderful memories of dogs and hunting partners, of smart-aleck comments and jibes...of good times gone and good times to come.
I'm reading a new book about God's love for me. It's great, very helpful in my walk right now and full of stuff I'll share eventually. I got hooked on this quote the other day in my reading...
"If we take all the goodness, wisdom and compassion of the best mothers and fathers who have ever lived, they would only be a faint shadow of the love and mercy in the heart of the redeeming God." - Brennan Manning
God loves me so much and yet I have had a hard time accepting it, free and unconditional. I'm a work in progress but I'm getting glimpses of how God loves me and accepts me as I am, made in His image. I have a hope for very, very bright days ahead.
Grace and peace to you.
I'm reading a new book about God's love for me. It's great, very helpful in my walk right now and full of stuff I'll share eventually. I got hooked on this quote the other day in my reading...
"If we take all the goodness, wisdom and compassion of the best mothers and fathers who have ever lived, they would only be a faint shadow of the love and mercy in the heart of the redeeming God." - Brennan Manning
God loves me so much and yet I have had a hard time accepting it, free and unconditional. I'm a work in progress but I'm getting glimpses of how God loves me and accepts me as I am, made in His image. I have a hope for very, very bright days ahead.
Grace and peace to you.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Water, Water Everywhere
Sometimes, it's good when you know the policeman who pulls you over. Whew.
My birthday is this month and I've been posting information on Facebook about my effort to help Charity:Water (www.charitywater.org) raise $500. That's a drop in the bucket for what they are trying to accomplish but a start. I was able to hear the founder share his story in October as was moved by what he is doing. He mentioned a fundraising program they started to "give your birthday to charity:water" and I decided to go along. If you would like to give, go to this link (http://mycharitywater.org/fromwisecounty) and you can donate and they will send you a tax receipt. And thank you for considering it. If you can't give now, please pray that this will continue to be a successful effort and go to their website to read more about what they are doing.
Clean water. Taken for granted by many. Needed by so many.
Grace and peace to you.
My birthday is this month and I've been posting information on Facebook about my effort to help Charity:Water (www.charitywater.org) raise $500. That's a drop in the bucket for what they are trying to accomplish but a start. I was able to hear the founder share his story in October as was moved by what he is doing. He mentioned a fundraising program they started to "give your birthday to charity:water" and I decided to go along. If you would like to give, go to this link (http://mycharitywater.org/fromwisecounty) and you can donate and they will send you a tax receipt. And thank you for considering it. If you can't give now, please pray that this will continue to be a successful effort and go to their website to read more about what they are doing.
Clean water. Taken for granted by many. Needed by so many.
Grace and peace to you.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Fighting Disappointment
An interesting weekend it was. I spent some time with old friends and the topic of disappointment was prevalent in each conversation...one that was full of pain, another that was full of hope. Trying to do what people wanted me to do has often left me tired, frustrated, mad and longing for something different while the fear of disappointing them has left me exhausted and often wanting to be isolated. It's a fear that has played to my programming that says my performance is what matters and if I don't perform to expectations, I lose. I lose their love, friendship, respect, status. The kicker is, I've rolled that over to my relationship with God too.
Looking at myself, the things that disappoint me are things that don't happen in my image of they way it should be. The Longhorns football season, the World Series, the girl who wouldn't go out with me in college, the friend who didn't go with me when I wanted them to. Disappointment comes when things don't match the way I see it and then I cast that on to someone else. The Longhorns and Rangers didn't want to lose, the girl had her eyes on someone else she felt was a better match, the friend had another option that was more in line with what he wanted. When I disappoint someone, it's not because I did something wrong as much as it is that their desire and expectation is something different than my own. Yet, when I know I have caused disappointment, the fear and pain of losing my standing with them, of letting them down, of causing pain stays with me. For days. For weeks. For years.
A dear friend told me the other day that God doesn't get disappointed. He knows the number of hairs on my head. He knows me inside and out and better than I know myself. He has no misconceptions about me, no beliefs about me that aren't true. And, even though I don't always do what His will for me is, He continues to love me and continues to be open to me coming back to His hope and direction for me. When I choose something that pulls me away from Him, he isn't disappointed but stable. My status with God doesn't drop. I don't have to try harder, I don't have to start over. He just keeps loving me as I am.
At least that's what my friend told me.
I'm going to try to begin living in that better. I'm going to try and quit worrying so much about disappointing people that I push them away. I'm going to try and start living at peace with my decisions and quit realize that grown ups are grown up and can deal with their own feelings. I'm going to try and remember that God loves me as I am, not as He imagines me being or as I imagine myself...just as I am. I'm going to try.
Grace and peace to you.
Looking at myself, the things that disappoint me are things that don't happen in my image of they way it should be. The Longhorns football season, the World Series, the girl who wouldn't go out with me in college, the friend who didn't go with me when I wanted them to. Disappointment comes when things don't match the way I see it and then I cast that on to someone else. The Longhorns and Rangers didn't want to lose, the girl had her eyes on someone else she felt was a better match, the friend had another option that was more in line with what he wanted. When I disappoint someone, it's not because I did something wrong as much as it is that their desire and expectation is something different than my own. Yet, when I know I have caused disappointment, the fear and pain of losing my standing with them, of letting them down, of causing pain stays with me. For days. For weeks. For years.
A dear friend told me the other day that God doesn't get disappointed. He knows the number of hairs on my head. He knows me inside and out and better than I know myself. He has no misconceptions about me, no beliefs about me that aren't true. And, even though I don't always do what His will for me is, He continues to love me and continues to be open to me coming back to His hope and direction for me. When I choose something that pulls me away from Him, he isn't disappointed but stable. My status with God doesn't drop. I don't have to try harder, I don't have to start over. He just keeps loving me as I am.
At least that's what my friend told me.
I'm going to try to begin living in that better. I'm going to try and quit worrying so much about disappointing people that I push them away. I'm going to try and start living at peace with my decisions and quit realize that grown ups are grown up and can deal with their own feelings. I'm going to try and remember that God loves me as I am, not as He imagines me being or as I imagine myself...just as I am. I'm going to try.
Grace and peace to you.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
The Fork
There are hundreds of variations to this story but they always ring true...
There was a young woman who had been diagnosed with a terminal illness and had been given three months to live. As she was getting her things in order, she contacted her Pastor to discuss aspects of her final wishes.
She told him which songs she wanted sung at her funeral and what scriptures she wanted read and the clothes she wanted to be buried in. Everything was in order and as the Pastor was preparing to leave, the young woman said "There's one more thing, one important thing. I want to be buried with a fork in my right hand."
The Pastor looked at the young lady not knowing what to say. Finally, he said "To be honest, I'm a little puzzled by the request." The young woman explained, "I have always remembered being at the table for big meals, as the main course was cleared away, someone would lean over and remind me to 'keep your fork'. It was my favorite part because I always knew something better was coming whether it was a chocolate cake or deep-dish apple pie, something better was coming. So, when people see me in the casket I want them to wonder 'what's the fork for?' and then I want you to tell them, 'Keep your fork, the best is yet to come'."
The Pastor's eyes were full of tears as he hugged the young lady and said goodbye, knowing it might be the last time he saw her alive. He also knew she might well have a better grasp of heaven than he did at that moment.
At the funeral, the Pastor smiled as he saw many people look quizzically at the fork or ask someone next to them about it. During the service, he was able to share the story the young lady told him and saw the knowing look on each face that the young lady had reminded everyone there that the best was yet to come.
Keep your fork!
Grace and peace to you.
There was a young woman who had been diagnosed with a terminal illness and had been given three months to live. As she was getting her things in order, she contacted her Pastor to discuss aspects of her final wishes.
She told him which songs she wanted sung at her funeral and what scriptures she wanted read and the clothes she wanted to be buried in. Everything was in order and as the Pastor was preparing to leave, the young woman said "There's one more thing, one important thing. I want to be buried with a fork in my right hand."
The Pastor looked at the young lady not knowing what to say. Finally, he said "To be honest, I'm a little puzzled by the request." The young woman explained, "I have always remembered being at the table for big meals, as the main course was cleared away, someone would lean over and remind me to 'keep your fork'. It was my favorite part because I always knew something better was coming whether it was a chocolate cake or deep-dish apple pie, something better was coming. So, when people see me in the casket I want them to wonder 'what's the fork for?' and then I want you to tell them, 'Keep your fork, the best is yet to come'."
The Pastor's eyes were full of tears as he hugged the young lady and said goodbye, knowing it might be the last time he saw her alive. He also knew she might well have a better grasp of heaven than he did at that moment.
At the funeral, the Pastor smiled as he saw many people look quizzically at the fork or ask someone next to them about it. During the service, he was able to share the story the young lady told him and saw the knowing look on each face that the young lady had reminded everyone there that the best was yet to come.
Keep your fork!
Grace and peace to you.
Monday, December 13, 2010
Better Late Than Never?
I started a new post last night but got involved in something else and it was too late to get back to it. So, now you know another crazy post is coming. So today is a babbling cacophony of random thoughts.
What's up with Tashard Choice getting Michael Vick's autograph after the game last night? Vick as a hero? OK, but after a loss on national TV? Have some sense, man.
What are the chances Jason Garrett is around next year?
I predict Cliff Lee will sign with the Yankees today. It's time to make a move and his hesitation is coming from the fact that his heart is in Texas and the player's union is all about big bucks. Bye Cliff. It was great having you around and we will miss you.
I'm a positive guy generally but always like to see these things in the negative so I'm not disappointed if it goes that way.
Disappointment. There's a topic for discussion.
Zack Greinke, Matt Garza or James Shields. They are all a couple of steps down from Lee. Ouch.
The Texas Longhorns are ranked 25 in the basketball polls. I'm hoping they do the opposite of last year. Last year they were ranked #1 for much of the preseason and then couldn't win a game down the stretch. Maybe they will end at #1 this year and all these bowl jokes will go away.
A 6th grader sent me a bowl joke making fun of Texas. Can you believe it? Oh, how the mighty have fallen.
Mack's coaching the team by himself right now.
I got called a sinner at church yesterday. Twice.
The guy did say we were all sinners but I took it very personally. (written with dripping sarcasm in case he's reading it)
I had a great weekend. I met up with some old friends who all spoke some truth I needed to here. I am so thankful for the way God has put people in my life who build me up in Him. I am truly, truly blessed.
Grace and peace to you.
What's up with Tashard Choice getting Michael Vick's autograph after the game last night? Vick as a hero? OK, but after a loss on national TV? Have some sense, man.
What are the chances Jason Garrett is around next year?
I predict Cliff Lee will sign with the Yankees today. It's time to make a move and his hesitation is coming from the fact that his heart is in Texas and the player's union is all about big bucks. Bye Cliff. It was great having you around and we will miss you.
I'm a positive guy generally but always like to see these things in the negative so I'm not disappointed if it goes that way.
Disappointment. There's a topic for discussion.
Zack Greinke, Matt Garza or James Shields. They are all a couple of steps down from Lee. Ouch.
The Texas Longhorns are ranked 25 in the basketball polls. I'm hoping they do the opposite of last year. Last year they were ranked #1 for much of the preseason and then couldn't win a game down the stretch. Maybe they will end at #1 this year and all these bowl jokes will go away.
A 6th grader sent me a bowl joke making fun of Texas. Can you believe it? Oh, how the mighty have fallen.
Mack's coaching the team by himself right now.
I got called a sinner at church yesterday. Twice.
The guy did say we were all sinners but I took it very personally. (written with dripping sarcasm in case he's reading it)
I had a great weekend. I met up with some old friends who all spoke some truth I needed to here. I am so thankful for the way God has put people in my life who build me up in Him. I am truly, truly blessed.
Grace and peace to you.
Friday, December 10, 2010
Riding the Whirlwind
That's sort of how I feel after this week.
I remember now why I don't like Las Vegas. It's crowded. It's loud. It's bright. It's noisy. There is lots of smoke. Lots of smoke. I always think I would like to go when I'm not working just to take in some shows and sights I miss when I'm on the go but then I think, if I never go back it will be soon enough. Our booths looked good, the Cowboy/Country Christmas events were cool to see, the cabbies loved the cowboys being there because they were busy and the rodeo was impressive. It was good seeing some folks I haven't seen in awhile and catching up with friends old and new.
I came back with a massive sinus headache and sore throat. Lots of meds and some sleep yesterday seemed to help but there is still a way to go to feeling great. It's one place where the smoke certainly didn't help me. Yuck.
Someone mentioned Christmas is just around the corner. Can it be? I'm not prepared.
I love stories where people have had a problem and something triggered an event that brought them to a place with God where He could work in their hearts. I just heard one and it's brightened my day. I've had my own and I believe I have more to come because I see where I have some barriers in my relationship, I'm just not surrendering my will yet. But I believe I will.
Grace and peace to you.
I remember now why I don't like Las Vegas. It's crowded. It's loud. It's bright. It's noisy. There is lots of smoke. Lots of smoke. I always think I would like to go when I'm not working just to take in some shows and sights I miss when I'm on the go but then I think, if I never go back it will be soon enough. Our booths looked good, the Cowboy/Country Christmas events were cool to see, the cabbies loved the cowboys being there because they were busy and the rodeo was impressive. It was good seeing some folks I haven't seen in awhile and catching up with friends old and new.
I came back with a massive sinus headache and sore throat. Lots of meds and some sleep yesterday seemed to help but there is still a way to go to feeling great. It's one place where the smoke certainly didn't help me. Yuck.
Someone mentioned Christmas is just around the corner. Can it be? I'm not prepared.
I love stories where people have had a problem and something triggered an event that brought them to a place with God where He could work in their hearts. I just heard one and it's brightened my day. I've had my own and I believe I have more to come because I see where I have some barriers in my relationship, I'm just not surrendering my will yet. But I believe I will.
Grace and peace to you.
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
Let The Good Times Roll
It's nearly 2:00 AM in Texas, only midnight in Las Vegas. I could operate on west coast time much better.
Tonight was cool with the exception of my phone shutting down on me so I couldn't take more pictures. We had front row tickets at the NFR. I'm not sure I can go back because I would have to sit with the common folk. We had a limo bring us back to the hotel. Talk about rolling in style. We ate at Wolfgang Puck's place and it was pretty yummy. Wolfy wasn't around but we did sit in between tables with a couple of the NFR cowboys so it was entertaining watching women come by to talk to them wearing stuff that made you wonder if their hotel room didn't have a mirror because they surely wouldn't have gone out like that if it did. But I'm not judging.
I was reminded today why I enjoy working in the industry I work in and with the people I work with. I'm thankful for days like this where my eyes are open to the things I have to be thankful for. I thank God for putting opportunities in front of me that provide happiness and joy. It's not always an easy ride but knowing His hand is in it allows me to keep moving forward day-by-day.
Grace and peace to you.
Tonight was cool with the exception of my phone shutting down on me so I couldn't take more pictures. We had front row tickets at the NFR. I'm not sure I can go back because I would have to sit with the common folk. We had a limo bring us back to the hotel. Talk about rolling in style. We ate at Wolfgang Puck's place and it was pretty yummy. Wolfy wasn't around but we did sit in between tables with a couple of the NFR cowboys so it was entertaining watching women come by to talk to them wearing stuff that made you wonder if their hotel room didn't have a mirror because they surely wouldn't have gone out like that if it did. But I'm not judging.
I was reminded today why I enjoy working in the industry I work in and with the people I work with. I'm thankful for days like this where my eyes are open to the things I have to be thankful for. I thank God for putting opportunities in front of me that provide happiness and joy. It's not always an easy ride but knowing His hand is in it allows me to keep moving forward day-by-day.
Grace and peace to you.
Monday, December 06, 2010
By the time you read this I will have already jumped...
on a plane to Las Vegas. Or I'm going through a body scanner or being patted in all sorts of unmentionable places. Or still trying to figure out what to take and what to leave behind.
Sin City. I hate it. It's loud and crowded and filled with fake lighting. On the other hand, I'm sure I'll wager my standard $100 limit at the blackjack table at some point. I walk away when I lose it or when I'm up $200. And yes, I have walked away up $200 a couple of times.
Packing for a trip like this wears me out. When you are my size, your clothes take up more space and weigh more. My extra pair of boots ain't light either. Yes, I do have to have 2 pair of boots. I've got my standards. Then there's the question of whether I'll make it to the gym or not, which 2 or 3 of the 60 books I have waiting to be read to take depending on my mood, extra everything just because I can't run in any store and buy what I need. Sheesh. There's the laptop because I will have to work at some point and a documents I'm in the middle of that need to be read. What a pain. All to go somewhere I don't enjoy but it's a work trip and I have always wanted to see the NFR so Monday night I will be a-hootin'-and-hollerin'...or maybe just clapping. There are 4 guys from Decatur performing so that's cool and 2 of them are our endorsers so that's even cooler and 1 of them has already won his record breaking 8th All Around Cowboy title so that's really cool.
I'll try to post something while I'm there. I've got a couple of posts I've already worked on that I've been saving for when the brain was ginning so you might see those or I might have some epiphany while soaring through the skies and have to write all about it.
I hope to be turning you on to a new blog soon too. I have a friend who is getting ready to launch in January and I know he'll have some good things to say. He has been a close friend of mine and someone who's thoughts and opinions I value highly. More on that later.
I'm starting a book that I think will stir some thoughts to share too. I hope to delve into that in the next few weeks. OK, off to begin the packing beat-down...
Grace and peace to you.
Sin City. I hate it. It's loud and crowded and filled with fake lighting. On the other hand, I'm sure I'll wager my standard $100 limit at the blackjack table at some point. I walk away when I lose it or when I'm up $200. And yes, I have walked away up $200 a couple of times.
Packing for a trip like this wears me out. When you are my size, your clothes take up more space and weigh more. My extra pair of boots ain't light either. Yes, I do have to have 2 pair of boots. I've got my standards. Then there's the question of whether I'll make it to the gym or not, which 2 or 3 of the 60 books I have waiting to be read to take depending on my mood, extra everything just because I can't run in any store and buy what I need. Sheesh. There's the laptop because I will have to work at some point and a documents I'm in the middle of that need to be read. What a pain. All to go somewhere I don't enjoy but it's a work trip and I have always wanted to see the NFR so Monday night I will be a-hootin'-and-hollerin'...or maybe just clapping. There are 4 guys from Decatur performing so that's cool and 2 of them are our endorsers so that's even cooler and 1 of them has already won his record breaking 8th All Around Cowboy title so that's really cool.
I'll try to post something while I'm there. I've got a couple of posts I've already worked on that I've been saving for when the brain was ginning so you might see those or I might have some epiphany while soaring through the skies and have to write all about it.
I hope to be turning you on to a new blog soon too. I have a friend who is getting ready to launch in January and I know he'll have some good things to say. He has been a close friend of mine and someone who's thoughts and opinions I value highly. More on that later.
I'm starting a book that I think will stir some thoughts to share too. I hope to delve into that in the next few weeks. OK, off to begin the packing beat-down...
Grace and peace to you.
Thursday, December 02, 2010
Third Day, Third Tune
I guess this is song week. You might have noticed by my Tuesday selection that it was a bit of a wacky day. The fact is I've been coasting the past few months. My journey over the past few years has been a rollercoaster and I was tired of the ride. I wanted a smooth ride with no bumps, no pain. I quit reading while saying I just couldn't focus. I quit listening, saying I needed peace. I was coasting with God, not growing with God.
I've been blessed by some good friends who speak truth to me and their words were getting dangerously close to truth I didn't want to hear. I avoided the conversation or said it was something I needed to think about...but I didn't. So, I think God put some things in motion in my life that forced me to face truth, another 2X4 to the head. Monday night and Tuesday were a night and day of brokenness. Painful brokenness. Brokenness that God used to bring me back to Him, to get me off the coasting ride and to put me on the ride that is headed closer to Him. He put a book in front of me last week that I needed to start reading today...and I did. And, I'll give him credit for opening my ears to the words of this song today, a song I've listened to several times but didn't LISTEN to what it was saying. I hope you enjoy.
Don't Give Up performed by Third Day
I've been blessed by some good friends who speak truth to me and their words were getting dangerously close to truth I didn't want to hear. I avoided the conversation or said it was something I needed to think about...but I didn't. So, I think God put some things in motion in my life that forced me to face truth, another 2X4 to the head. Monday night and Tuesday were a night and day of brokenness. Painful brokenness. Brokenness that God used to bring me back to Him, to get me off the coasting ride and to put me on the ride that is headed closer to Him. He put a book in front of me last week that I needed to start reading today...and I did. And, I'll give him credit for opening my ears to the words of this song today, a song I've listened to several times but didn't LISTEN to what it was saying. I hope you enjoy.
Don't Give Up performed by Third Day
Wednesday, December 01, 2010
New Day, New Tune
I read the 3rd chapter of 2 Peter with anticipation. I look forward to the Lord's return and would prefer it be now rather than later. I am tired of this world. I'm tired of it's hurting. I'm tired of it's suffering. It's not that I can't find joy here but I like to imagine what waits for me there.
Today, I heard There Will Be A Day sung by Jeremy Camp and it renewed my desire for His coming.
I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that trys to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,
that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew
But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering
There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we’ll hold on to you always
I know the journey seems so long
You feel your walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone
Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting
I can’t wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery this is why this is why I sing….
There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face
There will be a day, He’ll wipe away the stains, He’ll wipe away the tears, He’ll wipe away the tears…..there will be a day.
The past few weeks have brought new challenges to my life, challenges that make me long for what is ahead. I am challenged to figure out who I am and it has brought some hard, hard moments for me and for people near me. I may write about some of those in the next 30 days, I may not. I have a journal where I keep my most raw, most vulnerable comments. I have a decision to make and I'm not sure where to go with it. Today, my plan is to shut the blog down at the end of this month and go a different direction and I'm not sure if I want to go out with feel-good theme or with some tough stuff. There are some who have told me this blog helped them and I am thankful for God giving me the words to do it. Others may have stopped by just to see the freak show unfold. I don't know what the next 30 days will bring...or the days after that. But I do believe there will be a day and I long for it.
Grace and peace to you.
Today, I heard There Will Be A Day sung by Jeremy Camp and it renewed my desire for His coming.
I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that trys to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,
that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew
But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering
There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we’ll hold on to you always
I know the journey seems so long
You feel your walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone
Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting
I can’t wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery this is why this is why I sing….
There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face
There will be a day, He’ll wipe away the stains, He’ll wipe away the tears, He’ll wipe away the tears…..there will be a day.
The past few weeks have brought new challenges to my life, challenges that make me long for what is ahead. I am challenged to figure out who I am and it has brought some hard, hard moments for me and for people near me. I may write about some of those in the next 30 days, I may not. I have a journal where I keep my most raw, most vulnerable comments. I have a decision to make and I'm not sure where to go with it. Today, my plan is to shut the blog down at the end of this month and go a different direction and I'm not sure if I want to go out with feel-good theme or with some tough stuff. There are some who have told me this blog helped them and I am thankful for God giving me the words to do it. Others may have stopped by just to see the freak show unfold. I don't know what the next 30 days will bring...or the days after that. But I do believe there will be a day and I long for it.
Grace and peace to you.
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