I have asked God "why?" more times in the past year than I might have asked him in the past 45 years. Today, like many days, I ask why children have to suffer. Adults, I can understand. They have experience and they have seen more suffering which means they should be able to deal with it better than a child. This weekend I lost a friend but 2 kids lost a father and all I can muster is "why?"
I'm attending the funeral today and all I can think is "why?" In my life, I have seen how my trials and struggles have allowed me to reach out to other people yet I don't feel like I can reach some of the people closest to me. Why? Bad things happen that I didn't want to happen but couldn't stop. Why? The same pain I feel is felt by others and it could create issues for generations to come. Why? Why did you let it happen God? You can speak a word and the world can stop. So why didn't you stop this? Why?
I know that God is a much bigger thinker and visionary than I am. I know His ways are not my ways and his thoughts are not my thoughts. Praise God for that because in my limited ability to understand, all I can come up with is "why?"
Jeremiah 29:11.
I just wish I knew too but I will accept there are reasons I don't.
I would ask anyone reading this to say a prayer for Sergio Gonzales' family today.
Grace and peace to you.
1 comment:
I graduated high school with Sergio in 1991. Such a nice and genuine guy. I cannot attend the funeral today, but I am praying for his family. I know all too well what they face ahead. Along with "why" comes "how". How can I continue? How can I find purpose? How can I keep faith? How can I love again and risk losing it? I am very sorry for your loss, but also very thankful that you were in Sergio's life here on Earth.
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