I recently read a passage in Oswald Chamber's "My Utmost for His Highest" that rang true for me. Chambers said that we too often get caught up in serving God so much that we fail to seek God's will for our lives. He goes on to say that one of the greatest dangers in our relationship with God can be our service because we put what we are doing ahead of what God wants done.
Our society is one of getting ahead. We are told it is important to strive to be first team and first chair; to strive to be in the top 10%, the top of the class, to climb the corporate ladder. There are seminars and books and all sorts of efforts to study leadership even going so far that someone wrote a book titled Jesus, CEO. We plan and execute strategy and work to do more and more and more.
Christ didn't call us to lead, he called us to serve. Maybe we should be studying servanthood instead of leadership. Maybe we should study Mother Teresa instead of Patton; instead of "Jesus, CEO" we should be reading "Jesus, the one who went so far to serve us that He suffered more than we can know because that is what God called Him to do and He came back to life because that is how good God is to those who love Him and do His will."
God, help me when I try to serve you without seeking you first. Help me remember that the greatest example of who I should be gave His life and went through excruciating pain and agony to make my path better and my future brighter than anything I can do or imagine. Allow me to glorify you even when it's not easy or convenient or pretty. Allow me to glorify you when I go through pain and turmoil and help me remember that in the times I think you have abandoned me, you are there with me. Use me God. Set me on your path and allow me to do your will.
Grace and peace to you.
Sometimes I write before I think - caveat reader. The written ramblings of a spiritual schizophrenic. Romans 7:19
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Low Brain Activity This Morning
I love the book of Philippians.
The Rangers are playing great. The Angels are in another world. Can someone put some sort of voodoo curse on them for a little while?
It's still pitching that's getting the job done and Josh Hamilton can't hit the side of a barn. What's up with that?
I saw some video yesterday of a wedding where the wedding party is dancing down the aisle. The whole time I'm thinking, "these folks don't have great rhythm." It looked like they had fun though.
Just heard an old clip from Seinfeld where George is telling Jerry he wants to get a job in professional baseball. Funny but I wonder how many people have that same conversation thinking they could do some of the jobs better than the people in baseball doing those jobs.
Hosea's story boggles my mind.
Grace and peace to you.
The Rangers are playing great. The Angels are in another world. Can someone put some sort of voodoo curse on them for a little while?
It's still pitching that's getting the job done and Josh Hamilton can't hit the side of a barn. What's up with that?
I saw some video yesterday of a wedding where the wedding party is dancing down the aisle. The whole time I'm thinking, "these folks don't have great rhythm." It looked like they had fun though.
Just heard an old clip from Seinfeld where George is telling Jerry he wants to get a job in professional baseball. Funny but I wonder how many people have that same conversation thinking they could do some of the jobs better than the people in baseball doing those jobs.
Hosea's story boggles my mind.
Grace and peace to you.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Heaven
Last week I mentioned something about being ready for heaven and then heard a song on my iPod over the weekend that got me thinking about it again. The song titled Heaven sung by Los Lonely Boys (it's a band of 3 brothers and I think one of them wrote the song) speaks to me.
Save me from this prison
Lord help me get away
Cause only you can save me now
From this misery
Cause I've been lost in my own place
And I'm getting' weary
How far is heaven
And I know I need to change
My ways of livin'
How far is heaven, Lord can you tell me
Cause I've been locked up way too long
In this crazy world, how far is heaven
I just keep on prayin' Lord
Just keep on livin', how far is heaven
Lord can you tell me, how far is heaven
I just got to know how far, how far is heaven
Lord can you tell me
Tu que estas en alto cielo,
Echame tu bendiciĆ²n
[translated from Spanish]
[You that's in a higher place
Send me down a blessing]
Cause I know there's a better place
Than this place I'm livin', how far is heaven
So I just got to show some faith
And just keep on giving, how far is heaven
Lord can you tell me, how far is heaven
I just wanna know how far, how far is heaven,
Lord can you tell me, how far is heaven,
'cause I just gotta know how far,
I just wanna know far
I, too, want to know how far heaven is but it's not my place to know. In the meantime, my prayer is that God will use me to do His will; that He will use me when I'm strong to reach those who are hurting and that He will use me when I'm weak so I will remember that He is strong. I pray that He will use me to see with His eyes and to serve with His hands. I pray that He will use me to bring hope to those who feel lost and that He will use me to rejoice with those who have found Him.
I look forward to the glory of being with my Lord but wanted to be His instrument until that time.
Grace and peace to you.
Save me from this prison
Lord help me get away
Cause only you can save me now
From this misery
Cause I've been lost in my own place
And I'm getting' weary
How far is heaven
And I know I need to change
My ways of livin'
How far is heaven, Lord can you tell me
Cause I've been locked up way too long
In this crazy world, how far is heaven
I just keep on prayin' Lord
Just keep on livin', how far is heaven
Lord can you tell me, how far is heaven
I just got to know how far, how far is heaven
Lord can you tell me
Tu que estas en alto cielo,
Echame tu bendiciĆ²n
[translated from Spanish]
[You that's in a higher place
Send me down a blessing]
Cause I know there's a better place
Than this place I'm livin', how far is heaven
So I just got to show some faith
And just keep on giving, how far is heaven
Lord can you tell me, how far is heaven
I just wanna know how far, how far is heaven,
Lord can you tell me, how far is heaven,
'cause I just gotta know how far,
I just wanna know far
I, too, want to know how far heaven is but it's not my place to know. In the meantime, my prayer is that God will use me to do His will; that He will use me when I'm strong to reach those who are hurting and that He will use me when I'm weak so I will remember that He is strong. I pray that He will use me to see with His eyes and to serve with His hands. I pray that He will use me to bring hope to those who feel lost and that He will use me to rejoice with those who have found Him.
I look forward to the glory of being with my Lord but wanted to be His instrument until that time.
Grace and peace to you.
Friday, July 24, 2009
End of Week
It's been a crazy week with a baseball tournament going on and me coming and going from the office and working late to keep up. Fun, but crazy.
One of the things I cherish is time spent in Aracaju, Brazil with people who truly know the Lord God. It is always uplifting and encouraging to be with them and I will get the opportunity soon. It will be a blessing for me and I hope I can help them grow stronger in their walk with God.
I think I've mentioned that I have a copy of My Utmost For His Highest written by Oswald Chambers. It's an incredible book of thoughts and devotional ideas and, often, I feel like he knows me when he is writing. There are days that I have to read over and over because his words lead me closer to God each time I read them. I had the book for 2-3 years before I picked it up. I probably wasn't ready to understand the depth of Chamber's writing or the impact it would have on my relationship with God when I got it but I was led back to it at the right time. Powerful.
I'm working with some staff at work on how we see each other and how we treat each other in the hopes of continually going deeper to work on ourselves in an effort to make others better. It's incredible to hear the comments and see the changes as people take on responsibility for choosing how they will treat people and I'm thankful I work in an environment where I can invoke Christ as the example. So many places would limit or condemn the use of Christ and I am more than fortunate to be in a place where that is not the case.
I hope today I can be a living, breathing example of Christ-likeness.
Grace and peace to you.
One of the things I cherish is time spent in Aracaju, Brazil with people who truly know the Lord God. It is always uplifting and encouraging to be with them and I will get the opportunity soon. It will be a blessing for me and I hope I can help them grow stronger in their walk with God.
I think I've mentioned that I have a copy of My Utmost For His Highest written by Oswald Chambers. It's an incredible book of thoughts and devotional ideas and, often, I feel like he knows me when he is writing. There are days that I have to read over and over because his words lead me closer to God each time I read them. I had the book for 2-3 years before I picked it up. I probably wasn't ready to understand the depth of Chamber's writing or the impact it would have on my relationship with God when I got it but I was led back to it at the right time. Powerful.
I'm working with some staff at work on how we see each other and how we treat each other in the hopes of continually going deeper to work on ourselves in an effort to make others better. It's incredible to hear the comments and see the changes as people take on responsibility for choosing how they will treat people and I'm thankful I work in an environment where I can invoke Christ as the example. So many places would limit or condemn the use of Christ and I am more than fortunate to be in a place where that is not the case.
I hope today I can be a living, breathing example of Christ-likeness.
Grace and peace to you.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Middle of the Week
I remember when I used to look forward to Wednesday because the week was half-over. A friend commented the other day that he had hit the "hump day" of life meaning he reached the age he felt like it was half-over. It made me start thinking about what I will do with the latter half.
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I've heard a lot of Michael Jackson music lately. It keeps taking me back to images of high school. I remember taking Keith Dixon home from basketball practice. Keith (a black guy) always thought it was funny I (a white guy) was jamming to Michael Jackson with my stereo on steroids in my truck.
I talked to my Mom on the phone the other day and she told me Keith has died recently.
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I'm really not on some morbid, end-of-life kick today. Just a couple of things that popped into my mind.
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Joe Gibbs was just on ESPN and I only heard snippets but he was talking about some Bible scholar he's talking to who is giving him ideas of what heaven will be like. I don't know (although Rick did a great job with some sermons on it recently) what it will be like exactly but know this - there won't be pain but absolute joy. There won't be hatred or bitterness or anger - just absolute, unconditional love. There won't be cares and issues with Osama or Obama or Democrats or Republicans, no Baptists or Church of Christ'ers, no yankees or rednecks - there will be God, a majestic and perfect ruler, celebrating with His children who have come home - their only label being "saved by Christ."
I look forward to that day and hope it comes sooner rather than later.
Grace and peace to you.
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I've heard a lot of Michael Jackson music lately. It keeps taking me back to images of high school. I remember taking Keith Dixon home from basketball practice. Keith (a black guy) always thought it was funny I (a white guy) was jamming to Michael Jackson with my stereo on steroids in my truck.
I talked to my Mom on the phone the other day and she told me Keith has died recently.
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I'm really not on some morbid, end-of-life kick today. Just a couple of things that popped into my mind.
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Joe Gibbs was just on ESPN and I only heard snippets but he was talking about some Bible scholar he's talking to who is giving him ideas of what heaven will be like. I don't know (although Rick did a great job with some sermons on it recently) what it will be like exactly but know this - there won't be pain but absolute joy. There won't be hatred or bitterness or anger - just absolute, unconditional love. There won't be cares and issues with Osama or Obama or Democrats or Republicans, no Baptists or Church of Christ'ers, no yankees or rednecks - there will be God, a majestic and perfect ruler, celebrating with His children who have come home - their only label being "saved by Christ."
I look forward to that day and hope it comes sooner rather than later.
Grace and peace to you.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Welcome Home
I had a wonderful week in Colorado. I didn't catch as many fish as usual but caught enough to enjoy myself and the biggest one of the week was the last one I caught so it ended well. It was a good time with God's creation and time spent with family and I'm thankful for the opportunity to take some time away and relax. I think 3 more weeks of it and I would be alright!
I love waking up on July days and seeing the back porch wet from rain.
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It was an interesting week. I was reminded of the story of Abraham and Sarah and how God had them wait to fulfill His promise to them. They took things into their own hands and it led to battles that still exist today but God's plan was good and perfect.
How many times do I get tired of waiting for God? How many times have I taken things into my own hands only to find my ideas weren't so great?
My prayer today is that I will learn to wait and that I will wait with joy and peace in knowing that God will deliver.
Grace and peace to you.
I love waking up on July days and seeing the back porch wet from rain.
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It was an interesting week. I was reminded of the story of Abraham and Sarah and how God had them wait to fulfill His promise to them. They took things into their own hands and it led to battles that still exist today but God's plan was good and perfect.
How many times do I get tired of waiting for God? How many times have I taken things into my own hands only to find my ideas weren't so great?
My prayer today is that I will learn to wait and that I will wait with joy and peace in knowing that God will deliver.
Grace and peace to you.
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
This Is It For Awhile
Another blogging holiday of sorts. I'm going to be out more than in over the next couple of weeks so posts will be sporadic at best. I hope to come back somewhat rested, more relaxed and ever closer to my Lord.
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Did anyone stay up with the Rangers last night? I dropped out in the 8th inning but woke up to find they had won and are tied for 1st place again. I also heard Chris Davis was 3-for-4 at one point in his AAA game last night.
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Do you ever read scripture that haunts you, that stays in the back of your mind interjecting itself in your thoughts periodically? I've got a few of those and one that I juggle constantly is Acts 2:42-47. I wonder what that would/should look like today. Is it a picture of me running from here to there with all my busyness and periodically saying a good word to someone or doing something for someone every now and then. Is it a picture of a nicer house, a nicer car, more gadgets?
It haunts me because I wonder what those verses mean for me, what are they telling me, where are they leading me, what are the things I need to be doing differently?
I'm afraid many in this country have thought it was a favored nation because we were prosperous. Is there any chance prosperity comes from satan? Is there any chance the good things we can afford or not always, if ever, from God but from one who wants to occupy our time, our money, our hearts?
God loves me and He gave me all I needed long, long ago. What I needed lived and hung on a cross and died and walked out of a tomb. What I needed...what God wants me to have is the hope and promise that only Jesus provides.
Grace and peace to you.
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Did anyone stay up with the Rangers last night? I dropped out in the 8th inning but woke up to find they had won and are tied for 1st place again. I also heard Chris Davis was 3-for-4 at one point in his AAA game last night.
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Do you ever read scripture that haunts you, that stays in the back of your mind interjecting itself in your thoughts periodically? I've got a few of those and one that I juggle constantly is Acts 2:42-47. I wonder what that would/should look like today. Is it a picture of me running from here to there with all my busyness and periodically saying a good word to someone or doing something for someone every now and then. Is it a picture of a nicer house, a nicer car, more gadgets?
It haunts me because I wonder what those verses mean for me, what are they telling me, where are they leading me, what are the things I need to be doing differently?
I'm afraid many in this country have thought it was a favored nation because we were prosperous. Is there any chance prosperity comes from satan? Is there any chance the good things we can afford or not always, if ever, from God but from one who wants to occupy our time, our money, our hearts?
God loves me and He gave me all I needed long, long ago. What I needed lived and hung on a cross and died and walked out of a tomb. What I needed...what God wants me to have is the hope and promise that only Jesus provides.
Grace and peace to you.
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Give Me Your Eyes...
How do we see people? Today is the memorial circus for Michael Jackson and we will be bombarded with more stories of how people will remember him, either the rascal or the entertainer. How do people see him? How will he be remembered? I turned on ESPN this morning and the first story was Steve McNair, recently shot and killed allegedly with by his girlfriend. It was followed with former coaches and teammates talking about how they will remember him.
Two guys who have died and are having their legacy discussed in the media. Two guys who certainly made mistakes and took some wrong paths. Two guys who did a lot of good things and helped people in various ways. Two guys who, except for their fame, aren't much different than the rest of us. How do we see them? How will we talk about them?
I read The Shack recently and what the book gave me was the idea, the question, of how I will see people. Do I see them through my experience, through my idea of justice, through my idea of right and wrong or will I see them through the eyes of their Maker and Creator, of their Father who is also my Father?
I walk through Wally World and see People and National Enquirer magazines with all the latest scoops (and a little dirt) or get snippets of the latest rumor about people on the Internet - how do I see them? With my eyes or God's eyes?
Brandon Heath sings a song that speaks to me. The chorus goes like this:
Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
Ones that are far beyond my reach.
Give me your heart for the ones forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see
I want to see people through God's eyes. I will see them differently.
I want to see people through God's love. I will feel differently about them.
I want to see people through God's heart. I will have more compassion.
God, give me your eyes, your love and your heart for people.
Grace and peace to you.
Two guys who have died and are having their legacy discussed in the media. Two guys who certainly made mistakes and took some wrong paths. Two guys who did a lot of good things and helped people in various ways. Two guys who, except for their fame, aren't much different than the rest of us. How do we see them? How will we talk about them?
I read The Shack recently and what the book gave me was the idea, the question, of how I will see people. Do I see them through my experience, through my idea of justice, through my idea of right and wrong or will I see them through the eyes of their Maker and Creator, of their Father who is also my Father?
I walk through Wally World and see People and National Enquirer magazines with all the latest scoops (and a little dirt) or get snippets of the latest rumor about people on the Internet - how do I see them? With my eyes or God's eyes?
Brandon Heath sings a song that speaks to me. The chorus goes like this:
Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
Ones that are far beyond my reach.
Give me your heart for the ones forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see
I want to see people through God's eyes. I will see them differently.
I want to see people through God's love. I will feel differently about them.
I want to see people through God's heart. I will have more compassion.
God, give me your eyes, your love and your heart for people.
Grace and peace to you.
Monday, July 06, 2009
Monday Replay
Does it seem like Monday gets here faster than any other day of the week?
July 4th came and went uneventfully. No fires, no one lost an eye. I think I saw more fireworks than ever before though. Out driving Saturday night, they were going off everywhere. Big ones.
I appreciate the country I live in and am thankful for what I have. The freedoms we do have are a gift from the sweat and blood many have poured out for us.
As thankful as I am for this freedom I have, there is a greater freedom for me to grab hold of. I still get too many emails trying to link my freedom through Christ with the country I live in. I heard a question yesterday that had me thinking - does God love Americans more than Brazilians? more than Russians? Does God love Americans more than He loves Muslims? Does He love me more than He loves Osama Bin Laden? I don't think so.
We Americans need to remember living in this country doesn't give us greater favor in Heaven. Satan is an equal opportunity killer and his desire to rob our souls is no different than his desire to rob the soul of a terrorist. He gives them the desire to kill and has them think it is in the name of God. He gives us the desire to feel pride, maybe arrogance, and to feel safe in our prosperity and some try to tie it to a "Christian nation."
I won't be surprised to see a day when our prosperity ends and our freedoms fade in this country but no one can take away the freedom I have in God - the freedom to love, to give, to share, to be gracious and merciful - those freedoms are mine forever. The sweat and the blood have been given for me and the cross is my constant reminder that I have a freedom that far exceeds anything I can know because I'm an American.
Grace and peace to you.
July 4th came and went uneventfully. No fires, no one lost an eye. I think I saw more fireworks than ever before though. Out driving Saturday night, they were going off everywhere. Big ones.
I appreciate the country I live in and am thankful for what I have. The freedoms we do have are a gift from the sweat and blood many have poured out for us.
As thankful as I am for this freedom I have, there is a greater freedom for me to grab hold of. I still get too many emails trying to link my freedom through Christ with the country I live in. I heard a question yesterday that had me thinking - does God love Americans more than Brazilians? more than Russians? Does God love Americans more than He loves Muslims? Does He love me more than He loves Osama Bin Laden? I don't think so.
We Americans need to remember living in this country doesn't give us greater favor in Heaven. Satan is an equal opportunity killer and his desire to rob our souls is no different than his desire to rob the soul of a terrorist. He gives them the desire to kill and has them think it is in the name of God. He gives us the desire to feel pride, maybe arrogance, and to feel safe in our prosperity and some try to tie it to a "Christian nation."
I won't be surprised to see a day when our prosperity ends and our freedoms fade in this country but no one can take away the freedom I have in God - the freedom to love, to give, to share, to be gracious and merciful - those freedoms are mine forever. The sweat and the blood have been given for me and the cross is my constant reminder that I have a freedom that far exceeds anything I can know because I'm an American.
Grace and peace to you.
Friday, July 03, 2009
Don't Start A Fire
The 4th invokes so many thoughts and feelings for people because of all that it represents. While this is a great opportunity for a stirring, patriotic moment, the 4th always takes me back to a Sunday lunch when my grandmother kept telling me about a fire someone started years earlier shooting off fireworks. The conversation came up because I was going, that night, to shoot fireworks with a friend. We would be out in the country shooting them over a clay ravine. No hint of potential fire.
We were having a blast and everything was great with only one misfire - a bottlerocket that flew off behind us. Weird but everything seemed OK and we kept firing away. It was a few minutes later when my friend yelled "FIRE!" I turned around, saw a fire, turned back around to light another bottlerocket when realization clicked in. Yep, that was a fire. Our little misfired bottlerocket had gone behind us into a pile of dead pine needles. At this point the fire was a good 8 feet across and growing...growing towards the house of the brother of my friend who was out of town.
I'll spare you all the crazy details (I learned what a party line phone was that night) but the fire was eventually put out with the help of the fire department who got there more than an hour after we had been fighting to contain it on our own.
If you are shooting fireworks this weekend...don't start a fire. Take some time to remember what we celebrate and be safe.
Grace and peace to you.
We were having a blast and everything was great with only one misfire - a bottlerocket that flew off behind us. Weird but everything seemed OK and we kept firing away. It was a few minutes later when my friend yelled "FIRE!" I turned around, saw a fire, turned back around to light another bottlerocket when realization clicked in. Yep, that was a fire. Our little misfired bottlerocket had gone behind us into a pile of dead pine needles. At this point the fire was a good 8 feet across and growing...growing towards the house of the brother of my friend who was out of town.
I'll spare you all the crazy details (I learned what a party line phone was that night) but the fire was eventually put out with the help of the fire department who got there more than an hour after we had been fighting to contain it on our own.
If you are shooting fireworks this weekend...don't start a fire. Take some time to remember what we celebrate and be safe.
Grace and peace to you.
Thursday, July 02, 2009
I'm Loving This Cool Weather
Whatever. I'm not sure it will ever be cool again.
Hammerin' Hank hit a 2 run walk off homerun last night and the Rangers beat the Angels 9-7. Francisco doesn't look like he's ready to resume the closer role just yet but the bats are coming alive and the Rangers just took 2 out of 3 with the division leaders.
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Do you ever notice Satan blinding you to your own problems? Do you ever notice Satan blinding someone else from their own problems. I think most of us would fit in the second category more than the first because that's what Satan wants to do - get our focus on someone else and their problems.
I want to let God be in control of what I see, not Satan, and I want Him to make me aware of my shortcomings because doing so will draw me closer to Him who can give me the strength to win.
How focused can people be on Michael Jackson, Governor Sanford, Tony Romo and Jessica Simpson or even where the Rangers are in the standings and never examine their own lives? I don't want to live in that world and be caught up in the things that don't really matter. I want to know and see the battle I am engaged in and be focused to fight that battle through the power of my Lord.
Grace and peace to you.
Hammerin' Hank hit a 2 run walk off homerun last night and the Rangers beat the Angels 9-7. Francisco doesn't look like he's ready to resume the closer role just yet but the bats are coming alive and the Rangers just took 2 out of 3 with the division leaders.
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Do you ever notice Satan blinding you to your own problems? Do you ever notice Satan blinding someone else from their own problems. I think most of us would fit in the second category more than the first because that's what Satan wants to do - get our focus on someone else and their problems.
I want to let God be in control of what I see, not Satan, and I want Him to make me aware of my shortcomings because doing so will draw me closer to Him who can give me the strength to win.
How focused can people be on Michael Jackson, Governor Sanford, Tony Romo and Jessica Simpson or even where the Rangers are in the standings and never examine their own lives? I don't want to live in that world and be caught up in the things that don't really matter. I want to know and see the battle I am engaged in and be focused to fight that battle through the power of my Lord.
Grace and peace to you.
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